I'm doubting surgery...

I have NO idea what to do. I am seriously doubting having the surgery right now. All these thoughts of dissecting my gut are filling up my days!! What I am truly afraid of - and please tell me if I'm a moron - is not absorbing medication. I mean, what if in 10 years or so I have some rare disease that I have to take oral medication for and it doesn't work because my body isn't absorbing them???? Are these realistic fears or what? Am I thinking too much about it? I'm doubting GB, so does that mean that I probably shouldn't have it done? I'm about a month away from scheduling my surgery. Dr. A wanted my A1C to be below 8. My blood sugars have been phenomenal this week. I am REALLY trying. I'm low-carbing and exercising. I've lost 5 lbs in 3 days! This loss and my low blood sugars make me think that maybe I really CAN do it without surgery. Oh, I don't know. I'm chickening out again. Is it normal to have doubts like this? I think that if I could have had surgery 2 weeks after I saw Dr. A, I would be a post op right now because I was in that zone. Unfortunately I couldn't at the time because my A1C was 9.5. Sorry for the rant...am I normal???

I think it's safe to say that we all had our fears. but only you can decide if you want the surgery or not. Years before I had the surgery I had said I would NEVER do this surgery. no way no how. But boy am I glad I did. I knew I needed it because my doctor told me if I didn't do it I would become a diabetic within the year. And I didn't want that. I tried everything before I did this. but I couldn't do it on my own. I would do good for so long and then there was always a reason to cheat. I needed the help of this surgery. I needed to not be able to cheat. It was the best thing I could have done for myself. I am off my high blood pressure pills and my heart pills. I am no longer a prisoner in my own body. I am living life now instead of watching it go by and wishing I could join in. I am happy now. I can walk. I can shop. The list goes on. My only regret is that I wish I did it sooner. But like I said only you can decide. Good luck in whatever decision you decide. Koukla 338/184/? surgery date - 9-16-05 age 53 height 5'6"

Thanks Koukla - I really appreciate your response! I'm still thinking. I'm so thankful for all these posts and personal messages I've received. The CT board is awesome! All the responses are making me think. I'll let you know what I decide. Thanks again for your support! Michelle

mich go for it i had a lapband on 11/28 /06 and i feel great like everyone said it is ok to have fears but think about the good in this surgey i wish they had it earlier in my life iwas always ashmed of my wt please take that giant step you wont be sorry dont worry about future sickness if anythink this will help good luck god bless rember any decision you make you should be comtable with deb c

Rant away... you are very normal. I have sent you an email via OH. Check for it in your InBox. T.

Thanks Towanda! I've been so busy this week, but I will respond to your message. Thanks for taking the time to respond. Michelle

Hi Michelle, You go right ahead and rant. This surgery is not something to be taken lightly. It is a life-altering journey. I never really had the doubts once I made up my mind to have it. I thought about it for 2 years though before I made an appointment with the surgeon. Read as much as you can and stay connected with people who have had it. Good luck to you and realize that it is normal to have fears and doubts. Sandy

Thank you Sandy! I'm glad to know that I'm somewhat normal!!! Elective (and I use that term lightly with WLS because it's REQUIRED in some situations) surgery is always scary. I've never had a major surgery before, so I'm just really scared. I still have time to think and I'm very thankful for this board because you all are so supportive! I'll keep you updated! Thanks so much for responding! Michelle

I think I would be worried if you didn't have doubts. This is a life changing event. You should look at all options. Only you will know what is best for you. Don't feel like your pressured. If you feel you can get yourself healthy with out surgery... go for it! I think it is awesome when people can do that.. I wish I could have. I am truly greatful for the surgery because I couldn't do it on my own. My body worked against me. What ever you choose you will still be loved by us! Hugs, Chrissy

Hi Chrissy, I don't know if my body has the ability to lose any more than 20 lbs to be honest with you - I've never lost much more than that until I was sick and didn't know it. I lost a whopping 55 lbs. before I was officially diagnosed with type 2 diabetes. It was fantastic! But, it was mostly water weight. I gained 20 of that back in the course of 6 months and now am down around 7 lbs. of THAT 20 lb. gain since Sunday. It's such a rollercoaster. I'm so glad you guys are here to make me think, 'cause that's what you're doing!!! I'll let you know what I decide!! Thanks again! Michelle