Fell off the Wagon.

aww... gee... thanks. I love this place. ok... one more thing to add to this growing discussion. The concept of LIVING IN THE GREY. I have learned this from my "foodie" therapist... cognitive in approach. No more (or less and less of) black and white living for me. B/W, Yes/No, Right/Wrong... Very rigid way for us to live which puts pressure on us... and we all know what pressure (stress) does to us around food. At least for this puppy. And it also... that living in the grey, allows me to feel better about myself and the world. I become less disappointed in life and others around me. I am really trying to be my own friend rather than my worst enemy these days. It does help to learn my life-lessons sooner.... or easier... What I resist... persists. I guess one would say I am being a good parent to myself. Gee... thanks for bringing this all up. Oh...and I think you are one super broad too!

You really are full of Gems today...Living in the grey...What a concept.....I will mull it over...Perhaps my expectations are too high in some areas...especially when it comes to myself.. I hope to see you soon,

Dorota, We are all human and will have bad days. I know the scary part is falling back into the old habits. I think they are so deep seeded that they will be with us for life - it is just overcoming that demon and making right choices. Today is another day and the best part is you can forget this week-end and move on. You have done so well, I have great confidence you will be on the straight and narrow today! Good luck and keep your chin up!! Hugs, Nancy K

Thanks Nancy...Today is another day,..and I am moving on...just still feeling like crap from all the wrong choices I made this weekend..And I really feel powerless to fight that demon sometimes...and that scares me ...a lot.........

hi dorota, i think failure is always in the back of our mind,but you gotta remember that we are the winners here .just by effort alone we are actively doing something about our health.so winner,glad you're back on track no harm no foul. joni

you are right,,,failure sure is always in the back of my mind....And that is more scary than anything....but this is just a small setback......I am back on track...thank you

Dorota...welcome to the human race...we are not Saints yet...You slipped up or even chose to emotionally eat...it's not the end of the world...You are doing the right thing by starting a fresh today...make sure you get in enough protein besides your fluids...you don't want to mess up the balance...Congratulations for being so honest and posting as candidly as you did... Blessings...Jenna

Thank you...what you say rings so true...I feel that such a big part of sucess...in life, in WLS, is about finding balance..it is THE most important lesson to be learned on this journey..That is what I strive for ...THAT is MY BIG PICTURE...TO lead a balanced life...and eating healthy is just one part of it. Thanks for the reminder....

Hi Dorota, WAY TO GO for recognizing it and doing something about it! It takes a long time to get to the point where you can recognize bad behavior, let alone do something to change it. I'm proud of you! And as a fellow human being, I totally empathize. I'm pre-op, but still beat myself up for having bad eating days. Actually, I'm quitting smoking (quit 10/23), but gave in Saturday night and smoked one cigarette. I jumped right back on the wagon though, as I haven't had one since. It happens and it's not the end of the world, but it could have been a lot worse if I smoked another and another and then bought a pack - I'd be right back to where I started. So, good luck getting back on track from a bad eating weekend. I know you can do it! Michelle

Thanks Michelle (my FAVORITE Name) I know myself well enough to know that I always have to be vigilant (sp?)... When I get off track...and it happens more often then I care to admit...I HAVE to get right back on...That is the only way I keep myself healthy...As soon as I know what is happening, I have to stop it....If I dont, I am afraid I will end up right back where I started,,,,Powerless over a demon stronger than me.....Good luck with the cigarettes...I can only imagine how hard THAT can be,,,,