Feeling very depressed lately

Hello my dear friends, I am going through such a rough time right now and I can't shake it. Its been 18mths for me and the scale is stuck now 6mths. It wont move, it keeps going up and down and up and down. Its making me nuts. I am doing all the right things and I still cant shake it. Then I go for bloodwork three weeks ago, I go to my surgeon, she is on maternity leave and the other surgeon was suppose to see me, he never came in the for the visit so I ended up meeting with the nurse assistant there, they made me feel like I did not matter anymore. Then I call to find out my results and they dont have my bloods yet. They said the lab never sent them. What the heck, this is just adding to all my stress and how I am feeling. I am so tired of all of this. The depression is not bad, I dont need help, I am on medication for it all my life, I just feel like a failure right now. I cant seem to get past all of this. I try so hard with my exercising and my eating. Then I start to graze alittle and eat things I shouldnt. Going for the salt again. I hate this feeling. I know I need to be positive and to deal with this and work hard, I know all this but its so frustrating for me. I have done so well with my weightloss so far and I am so grateful for that, I thank god everyday that I have lost 104lbs and feel wonderful. I am just so sad alot lately that it has stopped, I just want to get out of the two hundreds and see 190 or so. I have not seen that since highschool and it would be so wonderful. Anyway, I just needed to vent alittle, I have not been on the boards as much as I usually am, I am just not up to it lately. I will get past this it will take time for me. My emotions are just all in a tizzy right now. Take care everyone love you all. Hugs KimC

Kim, sent you a PM. Tough love time, the big key to my weight now starting to drop again was my increase in exercise, if you don't exercise, no matter how much you don't eat, your body won't lose weight. You took a big step getting the surgery, but the honeymoon period ended a while ago. Kick it up a notch and try to work out like I do, four to five times a week for 30-45 minutes of intense cardio.

My buddy Paul, Again thank you for always being there for me, I am your angel and I should be there for you. As always you are my rock. Thanks again Hugs KimC

Kim Sorry that you are in a "rut"...I too often feel bad when the scale has not moved, and then I realize that it is a victory to maintain my current weight after a life time of yo-yo dieting. REMEMBER the word is PLATEAU!!!!! The scale has not moved for me for almost 9 months, but I am ok with that because as you also said, I know that I am doing all the right things. I have also made it through life's stressors (holidays, etc) without gaining, wow that is a personal victory for me!! Anyway, I sometimes think that our bodies need time to adjust to the weight loss. Also, do you keep body measurements? Sometimes I will do them and notice some big changes, so remember it's not all about those numbers on the scale, that's only one piece of the overall "healthy lifestyle puzzle". Don't know if this helps, but I wanted you to know that I understand. Best wishes...and hugs right back at you!! Cristina

Hi kim, I am so sorry you are feeling down,please pick yourself up out of this rut,you are a beautiful,wonderful person,and I am grateful to know you.You are an inspiration to most all on this board and I respect you very much for that.I wish I had a magic cure for depression,I am going thru it too,but for different reasons.I strongly believe with the help of good friends we will be fine. Keep the faith about your weight loss,its probably just a bump in the road that will pass with time..Stay strong my friend,if you were closer we would go walking.Keep in touch and remember you can always e-mail me anytime..Love ya girl!!!!! Cyndee

Hey there my dear Cyndee, I love your new photo, you look fabulous sweetie pie, thanks so much for your caring I really appreciate it. I am so glad we finally got ot meet to, your a wonderful person and it was fun to get to know you too. Thanks again KimC

Thanks kim,,are you ok??? Keep in touch,and by the way,,you dont look so bad yourself...Cyndee

Wow Cyndee! Sweet new picture! Doing great girl!

Thanks julio,im following in your footsteps..Down from 237 to 176 so far...Hope to see you and robin soon

You seem to have 2 concerns--- staying positive despite not having the success you want and kick-starting your weight loss. Objectively, I guess you already know that you have made tremendous progress. Too often, I find myself not revelling in my 300 pound loss, but in feeling like the 500 pound guy who always struggled with weight-- it's easy to associate any feeling of defeat or disappointment with those times we were obese, particularly for me. Because when those moment**** I know that I'm particularly succeptible to my old food demons, I really do have to do lots of little things to keep me positive. I keep an old picture from me at my heaviest to remind me of my progress and I keep an old bathing suit that I can hold up to myself to see how much smaller I am now. That way, it's a little easier to resist those temptations when I feel like I'm protecting those successes. To kickstart, I was one of the lucky ones who didn't have any plateaus or stalls for the 24-36 months of my weight loss. For me, I kept very high protein levels (701-100 grams per day) and was very, very strict about carb control. Although I wish I had begun an exercise program (which I think is critical for long-term health and well-being), I didn't but instead was just as active as I could be (doing lots of yard work and walking everywhere I could). I've found that one of the toughest aspects of our adventures is in appreciating that it's not a race to a set goal, but rather an on-going journey. Good luck in continuing your wonderful progress.