AM I CRAZY?
Of course you are not crazy. Sounds like you are trying to find out if some one will respond positively to you now before the surgery. That way you will know they are looking beyond the packaging to see the complete person rather than just looking at the bows.
Good for you...and you will find the person who likes you for your great qualities. Then they will be astounded when you are a big loser and wrap up the package in glitter and glitz. It will be like a wonderous magic act.
Also sounds like your self esteem is just about perfect now and you have rid yourself of those hangups that have prevented your dating before now.
You go for it and am wishing you the very best....