Size issues post op
I am 16.5 months post op and have lost 154.6 pds as of this morning on my weigh in day (digital scale ahaha) 
One of the things that I have found difficult to deal with and wonder if anyone else that is post op has had this issue is that I reached my goal size of being a 14 quite early on. In fact, too early according to the scales. When I was a size 14 in the past I weighed about 180 pds. I hit the size 14 at about 230 pds this time and although I didn't want to be below a size 14, I have real issues with being that heavy still. I really wasn't sure what I would end up with weight wise but thought that it would at least be under 200 pds. even if only 199. I didn't go through what I did with my surgery and afterwards to still just barely be into the top end of the obesity charts with a high BMI.
Now I am losing even more and the 14's are getting too big. so I am faced with how do I deal with being a size or two smaller than I wanted to be originally since I don't like skinny. I have NEVER liked skinny. I like curves and want to keep mine just on a smaller basis. I worry that if I lose too much that I will lose my curves and be too thin. I am 5'9" so if I drop really low, I could be the stick thin which I don't want to be. I can hardly believe the amount that has come off my chest. over 12 inches, yet they are still big enough for now. I have not had any of my reconstructive surgery done. when I do than my clothes will need to be smaller. I will have my tummy tuck done in Februrary and I have a double apron of skin with a few bits of stubborn fat stuck there right above my belly button and below. So that surgery will change all that and be flat which will proablay drop me to a size 12. with that being 6 months away, and me still losing, I might actually end up in a size 10 and that is too small in my mind.
I know that some may read this and say that they can't believe that I am worried about that and they would give anything to lose and be too thin, but actually you may indeed change your mind when you are on that side of the scales. Your focus and ideas on where you want to be do change as you go along. I have not been this thin since I was 19 years old and I am now 37 so it was also a bit hard for me to even imagine what it would be like to be this thin again.
Has anyone else had these issues or is this just me? how did you deal with it if you have had these thoughts?
Melisa
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One of the things that I have found difficult to deal with and wonder if anyone else that is post op has had this issue is that I reached my goal size of being a 14 quite early on. In fact, too early according to the scales. When I was a size 14 in the past I weighed about 180 pds. I hit the size 14 at about 230 pds this time and although I didn't want to be below a size 14, I have real issues with being that heavy still. I really wasn't sure what I would end up with weight wise but thought that it would at least be under 200 pds. even if only 199. I didn't go through what I did with my surgery and afterwards to still just barely be into the top end of the obesity charts with a high BMI.
Now I am losing even more and the 14's are getting too big. so I am faced with how do I deal with being a size or two smaller than I wanted to be originally since I don't like skinny. I have NEVER liked skinny. I like curves and want to keep mine just on a smaller basis. I worry that if I lose too much that I will lose my curves and be too thin. I am 5'9" so if I drop really low, I could be the stick thin which I don't want to be. I can hardly believe the amount that has come off my chest. over 12 inches, yet they are still big enough for now. I have not had any of my reconstructive surgery done. when I do than my clothes will need to be smaller. I will have my tummy tuck done in Februrary and I have a double apron of skin with a few bits of stubborn fat stuck there right above my belly button and below. So that surgery will change all that and be flat which will proablay drop me to a size 12. with that being 6 months away, and me still losing, I might actually end up in a size 10 and that is too small in my mind.
I know that some may read this and say that they can't believe that I am worried about that and they would give anything to lose and be too thin, but actually you may indeed change your mind when you are on that side of the scales. Your focus and ideas on where you want to be do change as you go along. I have not been this thin since I was 19 years old and I am now 37 so it was also a bit hard for me to even imagine what it would be like to be this thin again.
Has anyone else had these issues or is this just me? how did you deal with it if you have had these thoughts?
Melisa
Success is the BEST revenge! 
Hi Melisa;
I have to say that I have had some moments of feeling like this as well. My surgery was 3/22/04, so just being approx. 4 months out, I was a little bit worried that I am coming up on -100 pounds very quickly.... I am 5'3" and started at 281 and am now at 185 after 4 MONTHS!! It worries me a bit and I have NO idea where this will leave me for the remainder of the year... My goal is somewhere between 130-150 so it's not like Im not getting close. I just wanted to send a note to let you know I am having the same kind of feelings, because I never intended on becoming "skinny" just healthy.
Judith
Judith wow, that IS fast. I lost about 90 pds at my 6 month mark. I started out as 380 and now am around 224. so that is a big reduction for me. but it still bugs me that I am at such a high weight and in such a small size. I was generally always about a size 14/16 in high school and would love to be around that now. which I am. the only difference is that instead of being the 16-170 pds that I was than I weigh 224. hmmm....does make one wonder. I am phsycially active, like martial arts, belly dancing, hiking, hill walking, and lifting weights so maybe it is just more muscle. who knows. Still my size is really decreasing. I have had someone recently tell me that she thought I looked like had lost weight since she last saw me (which was only about 3 days before) and she sees it in my legs. others have said that too. My legs are sagging so badly right now that it is freaky. my plastic surgeon doesn't like to do legs. says there is too big of a risk of DVT (Deep Vein Thrombosis) with a complication of death. yikes. but my legs are sagggin so badly that I can't even wear shorts or a skirt that is a few inches above my knee. my knees are dimply becuase of the loose skin. don't know. probaly a much different thing to whine about than most people hear but it is an issue that most of you will deal with eventually. any more thoughts on this?
Melisa
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