I need Answers Please!!!!

Hi All, It's that time again. Yes, for me to vent. My support systems are in order, my weight is pulling off fast, but fast in who's eyes? Not mine that is for sure. Oh you look so good, to who? Not me. I know you feel good, No not really. Sure I can eat just about anything and not get sick, at least for now. Be thankful they say, oh but I am thankful. So what are you trying to say they ask? I am doing this thing because I have no choice at his point I say. But in the meantime can anybody tell me when does it get better. I have talked with my therapist, I have talked with my Lisa C. I have talked with Lisa D. I have talked with Wendy, I have talked with Debbie and tons of others. But when do I feel better I ask. Now what I need to know is the real deal. I need to talk to someone who is having the emotional difficulties that I am having. I am not sure what is wrong, is it just me, am I the only one that feels this way. I mean I read post after post after post and I hear all the glitz and glamour, but I have yet to come across anyone that has really displayed any real emotional trauma. If you are out there please respond because I need to talk. If you do not wanna tell your story on air please email me privately. I just need to know am I the only person that feels this way. I can give very good advice, and I can give lots of support and say encouraging things and mean them from the bottom of my heart, but I can not take my own advice, I am terrible at being my own support person. I am not trying to scare and new post ops or pre ops, this does not affect everybody the same, but for me it is beyond anything I could have evr conceived mentally and before I loose my mind I just need to know is it me? Am I the only person that feels this way? Adrienne

Hi Adrienne, I read your post earlier today and wanted to answer and offer some support but I was unsure what to say other then the normal stuff. So I went and read your profile. After reading it I thought you were right where you are supposed to be. Depression is normal after major surgery. I watched my husband go through it after open heart surgery and he ended up by seeing his doctor and was put on anti-depressants. I did not want to give this experience as the only thing I knew because I know there are other ways to go. So tonight I watched The Horse Whisper on TV. What a tear jerker. But it came to me while folding clothes what it is I really needed to share with you. In that movie we learned that the horse did nothing wrong and the little girl did nothing wrong. They did what came naturally to them. The horse wanted to protect the girl and the girl wanted to protect/save her girlfriend. We are not doing anything wrong....We have made decisions throughout our lives that we thought were best for us. For me that has brought a lot of hurt, pain and some joy. When I started doing the research on WLS I felt I was doing the right thing, now I am seven days away from seeing the results of that decission and still feel it is the right thing to do. Do I doubt myself, think I am crazy or fearful of change. You bet ya....Will I feel that way afterward, probably. But we are so blessed to have a support system on this website and with other people we know. We have all experienced at one time or another the same thing you are going through. Yes, I believe we are wounded people just trying to feel better, healthier and alive. Healing takes time. Just as it was for the horse in that movie it took him time, learning to trust again and ultimatly surrendering to the thing he wanted the most. To have his best friend back. So for me I realize healing, learning to trust in the process and ultimatly surrendering is what it will take to walk further on this journey then I think I am capable of. Hang in there, feel, talk, share and put one foot in front of the other. All of these things can bring us closer to our dreams then we ever thought possible. I hope you can understand my symbolism, I know for me it has helped with some of my fears. Good luck on your journey!!!! Joann D.