getting close and freakin out

Hello everyone,  I'm having my surgery on Tuesday Sept 4th and I'm completely freakin out . I have suregery before and I don't remember being this scare. I feel like i'm going to die during surgery or I'm going to have a hard time with food after it . I have even think of just not having thr surgery and just try once more to loose the weight but I know I'm lying to myself . Need some words of wisdom . help

dont worry hun you will be fine you are in very very good hands with Dr Wilcox, He did my surgery on Aug 14,2007, i was like you i was so scared about having surgery this time,and when you are in ICU hope you get cpt clayton he was the best nurse in ICU, i owe him so much for saving mylife as the same with Dr Wilcox,Good Luck on a new lease on life and i will be thinking about you,

I"m having the surgeyr with Dr. Imlay. I'm not sure if you have heard of him, he's very nice and straight to the point (no sugar coating with him). I just feel like this is the end of my life if I go thru with the surgery , to make it worst I went today to the Commissary with my husband and just looking at all the things I'm not going to be able to eat and all the things I'm going to have to change freaked me out . I kept thinking I'm really sure this is what I want? AM I making the right decision and my husband just asked me What was I going to do? I told him I'm scared and I know it's going to be a big sacrifice but If I don't got thru with it I'know I'm not going to live longer . I'm going to end up with diabetes and heart problems like the rest of my family but at the same time I'm so scare. I have a great support group at Penrose hospital and I like the one at Fort Carson but they have been cancelling the last few meetings. If this normal? Did you felt like your life was ending?

im sorry my bad i thoughi i saw Dr wilcox, i heard he is real good to,i know hun i went through the same thing when i would go to the store,its hard to give up the things you use to love,thats why i decided to go ahead and the surgery because of my health i had high blood pressure and all the good stuff that went with it.yes i miss the support groups at carson, ive been going to them since may, and they were canceal for july and aug, my husband told me the one for aug was canceal,i had my surgery on the 14 of aug, and on the support group meeting was on the 15 i was planning on coming down for it but at 7pm i being rushed back into the OR,yes i felt like my life was ending,sometimes i still do after what ive been through,but you will do good the hardest part of this all is the 3 weeks you are on nothing but the liquid diet,if you need to talk you can talk to me on yahoo its msrebecca64

Perfectly normal thoughts!  You'll do great, you'll feel so fantastic in a few weeks you'll be asking "why did I hesitate?" A good friend of mine is a nurse at Ft. Carson, her name is Mae Dotson.  I hope she is one of your nurses, she's fantastic. I've heard only positive positive things about surgeries there.

Your second..third..fourth.....thoughts are perfectly normal. This is a HUGE step for all of us. And yes, you may have some complications and the first couple weeks will be very hard--but down the road--WOW will it  make a huge change in your life. There are foods I miss--but I always seem to find something that I can have that is just as good. But not one food that I can't have makes up for what I see in the mirror now. Wouldn't trade my 80 pound weight loss for any food on earth!! Good luck tomorrow. We'll be waiting to hear from you. Kristi

Hey...I sent you an e-mail in reply to this thread. I had gastric bypass at Fort Carson with Dr. Imlay....wow did I have lots of second thoughts and I was freaking out for sure. I regretted the surgery for the first month...now six months down the line...it was absolutely the best thing I have done and I am so very happy that I did it. It's hard and painful...but completely worth it. It took everything I had not to pull the IV out of my arm and jump off the table. It's a scary thing this surgery. It's worse than an average surgery in a way...because afterwards our lives are completely different. Everyone's lives completley revolves around food...our lives after surgery are very different than before the operation. It's very hard at first...but every day something gets better...and before you know it you feel better than before your operation...then you look at pictures and it's hard to remember being that big.  Good luck!!!! Try and think positive.