looking for help
I am Melissa and I will be 19 july 2nd i have been struggling with Obesity since i was 13 yrs old. I have all been diagonsed with depression and suicidal. It affected the way that I was in school I had very little friends because I was always worried what people thought about me. I never really talked to anybody. When it came to school dance I never went because of I could never find a dress that could cover my fat. I wanted so bad to fit in but I couldnt.
As far as my relationships, I always end up pushing away everybody for fear that I will be hurt. I think this has a lot to do with when I was little my father would call me names...fat, cow. pig, fat ass and as a result I was always scared to let males in. I dont know exactly how to not push away a male, as a result the boyfriend that I have now is struggling to stay with me because he doesnt understand my ways, when I get upset I just stay quiet.
My mom however is not obese, three months ago she was diagnosed with COPD which is a severe lung disease, she has been in and out of the hospital, on oxygen and steriods, and takes a different inhaler each hour. I think the thougt of loosing her has made me so depressed that I have gained more weight. My aunt was very obese and had a surgery which made her loose so much weight she is now at 110. I have been struggling with this my life and am looking for help because I am not sure how much longer I can stand being fat.
I have been looking and looking for a job but have found no luck what so ever. my mom has insurance, but even they are messing with her because they wont pay for any of her medical things, because it was there before she got insurance. I really dont know how to explain it. I dont have insurance because i wont be attending school this semester. I did badly last semester because of my mom being in and out of the hospital and other problems, and the school told me I couldnt go back for this semester, which breaks my heart. but theres not a lot I can do.
Hi Melissa,
I'm not sure how much this will help, but let me try to address a couple of your points.
1) college - Contact your community college, you will likely be eligible to attend and you will get an excellent education at a very afforable price. Additionally, talk to them about what kind of health insurance is available to you if you attend full time.
2) insurance - Most health insurance plans that I'm familiar with cover dependents until age 21 or some up to 25. So be sure to check what your mom has. Call them yourself, or ask an adult you trust (your mom, too!) to call for you and be your advocate. It can be complicated, so ask someone who is not afraid to keep asking questions on your behalf.
3) depression - This is a treatable condition. If you have not already done so, please go to your doctor and explain how you feel. S/he may prescribe medication for you. You will feel so much better you will wonder why you waited.
I've been on depression meds for a lot of years and they are a God send. I know that not everyone believes in them, but my motto is "better living through chemistry." My 18 year old daughter takes Prozac and she is amazed at how much better she feels. She is a joy to be around again. More importantly, she fees better about herself and about life. She was a cutter before going on medication.
I think most everyone here can relate to the feeling of not being sure how much longer you can stand being fat. I've been struggling since the day I walked out of high school and I'm 52 now.
Come here for support.
Hugs,
liz
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