Just wanted to say thank you for the suggestions i have pulled out my trusty kaiser book..

My Presurgery diet consisted of chicken, ground turkey, salad, healthy choice meals, Yogurt, Ton's of water, no soda of any kind, Not even diet.. We ate stuff like taco salad and just healthy meals. I lost 30 lbs eating like that and hubby lost 65lbs... You just have to cut out all junk.. I got it all out of my house.. To be honest I didn't exercise like I should have but I am sure if you get back into a routine and eat right you will get back on track..

Yeah STAY afraid...when I stopped being afraid and KEPT giving into deserts I ended up 25lbs heavier and I've been trying for th elast 8 months to get it off...

First I want to thank you all for your well wishes on finding out I am going to be a Grammy.  The sex has been determined, WE ARE GETTING A BOY!!!!    YIPPEE-this totally excites me.

Willa, thank you for the furniture,  armoire did not fit, so we will figure something out.  

On a new note, my son found a condo in Hunt. Beach and signed the lease on Aug. 28th.  He came home and said he was moving out that day.   WOW - I am excited for him and his girlfriend that they finally have their own place.  They are learning the hard way, but getting it done.  

With my son moving out, things here at home are a little unsettled.  My hubby misses our son dearly and is kind of in a blah mood.  Sometimes I feel like I said or did something but I know how much my hubby hates change and he will just have to work through it like everything else.

MY BIGGEST FEAR - I am 2 years out and still need to schedule my 2 yr. apt.  Recently went to see my PCP and my cholesterol is high.  Want to know why?  Well my best guess would be, because of the stress I am dealing with at work (10-12 hr days), and everything at home I eat chocolate.  At work it's chocolate candies & licorice.  At home it's ice-cream bars (sugar free).  I know, I know - JUST STOP IT. More blood work is scheduled for Wednesday morning to see the cholesterol level.  If in the correct range no medication, if still high, I go back on cholesterol medication    I know better than to eat chocolate, but besides popcorn, chocolate has always been my downfall.  

I am so very afraid of gaining my weight back and have mentioned that to my family.  They have all told me that if they see that happening, they will tell me or say something to me.  As for losing weight, my PCP said I lost 4 lbs. since the last time i saw her.  According to my scale, I have not lost one lb. for over a year.  Actually, I am OK with this considering where I started.  If I never lost another lb. I would be OK with that - SERIOUSLY.  Although if I could break 200 lbs it would be just awesome.  Only 7-8 lbs to go.

Have not had chocolate in over a week.  Hoping for good results on blood work when I return to PCP on Friday.   

I need to get my butt back on this board and start holding myself accountable for my bad, bad choices.   Between stress from work, the business not doing well at all, drama with my MIL estate and dramatic sisters, son moving out, unwed, unemployed pregnant daughter and extreme medical bills coming in for this I will hold my head high and put 1 foot in front of the other and get through each day, 1 day at a time.

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