a real bummer. . .

So I have had my consults and I needed to lose 24 lbs to get the surgery. . .and it's been almost a month and I just have been in a funk ever since. . .Not working out as much. . .I don't know what happened.

I haven't weighed myself, and I am scared to. . .but today I went with my daughter to take photos and I have never been so embarrassed. . .I looked hideous. I didn't feel like I was looking at myself. I think I avoid looking at myself because I'm ashamed. I have never been this heavy. . .

Now I am more motivated than ever to get back on it. . .but I still feel like garbage right now.

 :(

We've all been where you are and have felt as you do.  Put that feeling in the back of your mind, and if you're a journaling type of person, write down how you're feeling.  Once you have had your surgery and are a couple of years out there is regain and being able to look back really helps. 

I am going through that right now.  While I've only regained 14 lbs, I feel like a slug and I need to get back on my program.... protein, protein, protein!  Carbs are not my friend!  LOL  Today I've vowed to start journaling what I eat and focus more on dense protein at each meal and snack.  It's very easy to get back to old habits.

Keep your eyes on the prize and you'll get there.  We're here for you and glad you're here for us too.

Hugs,
Barb

Don't weigh yourself or look at pictures! Put those away so you can get moving and work towards the surgery date.  Have your daughter hold onto them until you have a beautiful after picture to put next to it! I think Barb had a great idea of journaling which you're doing here! We just get to read it. :) 

I did the same thing the first time I went through this process. I had all my requirements done except the weight loss and I just couldn't do it. I knew how, but I had no motivation. This time I'm ready and have lost my presurgery weight (12 lbs) plus 3 more in 11 weeks. I'm doing Weigh****chers so no matter how you do it just GIT 'ER DONE!!! We're here for you!  Let me emphasize PROTEIN!!!! It really helps while you're exercising to build muscle which in turn burns the fat.

Now go exercise!!!

It's called self-sabotaging...just when we think we are ready to do this, our psychie gets in the way and we find ourselves doing totally self-defeating things to keep us from  it.  Don't beat yourself up...this is not an easy journey...but so worth the effort!  And YOU are worth the effort!!  Success will come by looking FORWARD..not backwards...start today...get back to exercising...you KNOW how to lose the weight (we ALL need to learn how to keep it off! ^_^ ).  Set goals...where do you want to be in 3 months, 6 months, a year?  Start today to reach that first goal...you CAN do this...IF it is what you really want.  I agree with Barb...journal everyday...be accountable to yourself...no body else matters.  Stay in touch...you've reached out and we're hear to give you support, encouragment and our stories as motivation for you...we all want you to Succeed!~
Nancy aka Sunray