Interesting Observation

My man and I were watching something on tv last night (can't recall what now) and he said that it was odd that I've gained weight since he never sees me eat and that I don't "enjoy" food!  And he said that I'm the only one that he knows that doesn't get excited about "food", he ENJOYS food and states so often.  I got to thinking and he's right.  I always say, "I wish I didn't have to eat, then I'd be happy"... and he reiterated that I do say that all the time and when it comes to the daily "whats for dinner" question, I DREAD it!  *sigh*

So, it was a odd awakening.

I don't eat because I LOVE food, I just make BAD choices in the food that I eat because it's fast or easy or whatever.

I eat to satisfy the boredom, emotional stuff etc.  but NOT because I LOVE food!

How crazy is that?

God, he's so right on... it's odd how others see you different than you see yourself.

Just thought I'd share.

Since surgery my attitude towards food has changed too, this is just the beginning!!  I have this bizarre love/hate affair with food.

Sometimes food is my friend, it fuels me to get through my day and I NEED FOOD to be able to complete my workout and my runs.

Then there are other days when food is my enemy.  It's the evil cake in the breakroom at work that I know will make me dump.  Sometimes I think eating just a little snack will make me gain my weight back,   Sometimes it's even the remainder of a healthy meal that I think I want to finish even though my pouch is full.

I'm trying to learn to have a new relationship with food. It's not easy.

In the past few weeks I've given much thought to all these things. What triggers me too eat? How am I feeling? There's a lot of emotional/psychological reasons I was a 300lb person.  I want to work out all these things now, because I believe avoiding all thse issue are what leads to gaining the weight back or developing new addictions.

I think it's great that you're noticing all this, it will help you in your journey.

Thanks Monica, I need to build on that, maybe keep a food journal, that might help.. we'll see.  I need to be productive about it though, something to think about anyways!  ;)

Surgery is less than a month away (IF I'm approved) !!!!

i tend to not make the best choices where food is concerned......i go for the quick and easy route every time. i don't enjoy cooking like i used to. but now that my life has come to a screeching halt for the next couple months i can slow down...not that i'll cook, but others will be doing it for me and i know that they'll feed me well. at elenas here i'm eating healthier than ever before....lots of protein, low fat and low suger, and it's dang good too

Well maybe you can give me some quick and easy ideas for after the surgery!  I know that idea isn't going to change in my mind.  I've never been a big cook, but can if need be...

Yes, you need to take it easy and mend well!  Let others care for you now, suck it up while you can, lol!!  Hee Hee!!

Hey Janel - how are you doing????  I could not remember your dates:(

I had my wrist surgery 8/1 and next week is the DS on 8/20.  Please let me know how you are doing.

6 years later, I still hate the thought of figuring out what I am going to eat. I made super bad choices myself and those choices got me to 385 pounds in a flash really. When I was in my 1st year of post op, I pretty much remember that feeling of hating food. Now I have learned to strike a balance and above all being prepared has made a big difference. Keep exploring your process and you will get many answers to a lot of things!