My true intention!

First of all thank you to all of you who said some really kind things to me yesterday.

I think after re-reading the post, I made it sound like I was not going to be around and  I was taking my toys home and not play anymore. Nothing further from my mind actually.

Yes I felt a bit hurt and yes I realize the world does not evolve around me, but what I was really thinking about is all the people who have something to say here....DO NOT say it because they lurk or whatever. We all see the amount of hits post make and if I was feeling crummy about the realization that obviously my post was not really read....I am think how do the new people feel when they get no replies. Yes I realize that we all can't answer someone, but I love the times when I see peope posting....hey I have no idea, but want to welcome you to the boards anyways.

Can you imagine how that made you feel when you got a message like that?

We all know the isolation of being obese and the hurt we have all experienced from being obese. We were ostricized from everything and anything. So we come here to a comminuty where we think that we are accepted and we still at times are made to feel this way.

As I said I stick around because I feel I should pay it forward because this site was here for me....and yes I mainly did the mainboards until I stumbled across here and kind of never left. I stick around too because it keeps me honest with myself which is important.

I felt compelled to put it out there yesterday because yes it was important to me about my surgiversary and if I could get the feeling of so what.....I am thinking about the newbies and the people who are afraid to post because of maybe having the same feelings.

I was not looking for an outpour nor was I trying to be a drama queen...it was just how I felt and was not trying to make you all feel bad in general...it is like Rachal said....living out loud.

I do thank all of you in spite of the way the well wishes came out...I feel somewhat embarrassed as it was not my intentions to make it more than it was...it was meant and came out wrong of trying to make you all realize that we all have feelings and just a waveby can make someone we do not know feel like a million bucks if we took a moment to say something kind to them or give them a mere nod.

Happily march onwards into year 6 and grateful to put year 5 behind me!

  

I think you have every reason to feel the way you did.  Speaking for myself, I am relatively new to these boards and I look forward to reading your posts everyday.  I feel like I know you.  What you have accomplished is amazing, and I look up to you as a leader.  Six years is great and from your pictures, you look absolutely wonderful.  I am truly sorry for not acknowledging your Surgiversary.  (embarrased)  You deserve all the praise and support from us as you give so much to all of us.   You rock!  Linda

Actually.. I see your point about posting and stuff but I have been around a long time and I found that it was too easy to spend literally hours reading and posting. I just dont have that kind of time. I am also a member of two other communities that are important to me. Ha! I'll bet I could spend all day every day doing this.. I find people endlessly fascinating! I often have issues or questions I would like to post here but I dont because I feel like I dont want to take if I cant give back. So I post to things that I feel need my attention, like SD lunches.. and once in awhile if someone asks about something I know about and no one seems to be responding or something like that.  I hope you dont take this as an indication that I dont feel you all are worthwhile. Because I do, and I tried to say that on my surgiversary post. I dont read the morning post often purposely because I know I will spend a lot of time there, wanting to respond to whats going on in peoples lives. But the times I HAVE read it, I am AMAZED at how much effort you put into it. You are clearly a person who cares for others. So, I guess what I am trying to say using the most words possible :-) is: dont let us lurkers get to you. We still love and appreciate you and hope you will forgive those of us who dont tell you often enough.

I'm wearing white sox and S T I L L don't have an iPhone G3!!! C h e e r s, gene

Dude... Did I miss something or are you still coming off of caffeine?

Oh Janine!  Happy Bandiversarry!  My computer at home won't hook up online - so I have to just pop in and out of things here at work . . . but YEA YOU! OMG . . . I better not forget your BIRTHDAY when we are sharing a campsite two weeks from TODAY! Thank you for ALL that you do . . . it IS so appreciated!  See you soon! Chris

Janine, I have to admit I have been one of those lurks for awhile, post here and there, but not nearly what I use too. You are so right with how it felt to just get a welcome post. Thank you for being so honest with us all. I know for me it was a eye opener. So with that I thank you!! O and Congrats on your 6 year surgaversy (sp?)  I can only hope to look as good as you when I turn 6!! U ROCK!!!