OT Deep Funk

Well, I had a major revelation today.  I had planned on going out on a long hard  bike ride.  I really didn't want to go.  I had not been exercising like I had been wanting and found myself getting into a deep funk .  Now mind you I have been aware of this and just was not interested in doing anything about it or much of anything else .   Ok...... lets call it what it really is I have been somewhat depressed .  Life situations seem to be the culprit.  I know what I need to do when I get like that and it is to take care of myself and I hadn't been.  What got me there was everyone elses needs before mine.  I am not sure that anyone else had ever done that....haha.  That is what helped steer me to the super morbidly obese lifestyle.   I digress.  So, I sucked it up and went out for a ride .  I was a truly hard ride.  I rode with 7 other people that rode.  One was my dear friend Laramie ( she is so awesome)  the rest were men. Laramie, had been bugging me to get out and do something.  I almost did not go.  But I did.   Let me tell you.  If you are in a funk or whatever you want to call it exercise helps.  Really really helps.  I feel so much better.  I have been the energizer bunny all day today.   The moral of my long drawn out story is.  That when we exercise we release endorphins and endorphins make you feel good.  It doesn't make your problems go away just makes you feel better. I need to get my butt in gear and get trained for this 175 mile bike ride that I am doing.   To let you all know what was up with my funk.  Since about January I have done for my daughter, son, daughters boyfriend, other friends, work, work, work, and more work, stressing over everything.  Worried about my Dad, dealing with you know family things, brothers being a**holes and I will not speak with them.  So, I let myself get taken over by all of this and I had the aha moment that I need to take care of me.  So here I am I am back and I feel so much better.  I wish that this week wasn't so busy that I could ride my bike to work this week.  Everyday is busy.  But I will get time in to take care of ME ME ME. So be sure that you take time for You. We need me time.  Me time for some maybe just having quiet time.  For me it going out and exercising balls to the wall and feeling like spaghetti it is such and awesome feeling. After 22 miles and about 1400 calories I came home tore my bedroom closet apart went thru a ton of things and Dusted the walls in my bedroom.   Sorry for this being so long and raving.  But I just wanted to share with you all.

OMG I have been in the same mood. I know what I need to do, but just can't seem to make myself do it. I did go for a run last night, but just one mile. and I hated myself the whole time.

I have plans to get up and go to the gym in the AM. Lets just hope I do it. And not whimp out. After that I am head over ot the Greyhound Hemopet rescue. (hemopet.com is a large blood bank for animals)I am thinking about getting a new family member.

If I do this, I think I will break my funk.

I am glad you posted this, because you are right, life gets in the way, then we just let it stream roll over us.

Sending you to much love.

Luana

Luana, We have talked about this time and time again.  Neither of us really identifying that we are in some kind of a funk.  It felt really good to break the funk.  I was just thinking oh good I can go to swim team tomorrow.  It meets M W F.  Well tomorrow will be tuesday.  I will not be going tomorrow.  It looks like this week is a total wash.  I have graduations to attend in the evening and swim is from 6-7 pm.  Not looking like it will work for me.  I can get the gym and maybe a bike ride in this week.  I am also down 6 lbs this week.   So here is to not being steam rolled by life. Love Ya Liz

Right on, Liz - (or is that R I D E  ON!) anyway - Congrats on pressing through and finding you. I'm sorry that you're having to deal with so much crap and hope this experience will help you as you go on. Part of many of our problem is that we do truly care about people, especially family - and like you said - we tend to put their needs in front of our own. I see putting your needs first as a step to freeing you up to truly help them because you're able to help out where you can without any regrets or resentment... I don't mean that the way it sounds but can't think of the right word. Now if you can bottle up that "Get Out There and Do It" I'll take a few bottles! C h e e r s, gene

Gene, I did not take any offense by what you said.  Because after a while if we do not take care or ourselves we do begin to resent.  It was really good.  Well, I am bottling up a good dose of "GET OUT THERE AND DO IT"  I will send you 4 or 5.  I know that I need to step back and not make my families problems mine.  They are all plenty old enough that they do not always need me.  So therefore, we make a problem that does not need to be ours into ours,.

Thanks

Liz

We should go do something Girlie together LIZ! Treat yourself and all that JAZZ! I'll call you and we'll make plans- ok?

*hijack* Rocky,  I really enjoyed looking through your other website!  Makes me wish that I was closer, so that i could take those little jaunts.  I really do think that if we make it down to SoCal this summer (if the damn gas will go DOWN!!), that I want to make a trip out to the Hollywood cemetary.  That is right up my alley!! Vicki

I think that there is something in the air....I have been in the same funk for a few days, but came to a head today.  Today was just plain ole bad. But, tomorrow is a new day and I am looking forward to spending some time in my son's classroom to help out.  Haven't done that in a long long time and there is really nothing better then being around a bunch of 3-4-5 year olds and their learning process. I was able to get some ME time over the weekend as well, which was GREAT~ but, I think I could use a whole week of it!! Good for you for pushing through it and getting out on your bike! xoxox

I'm glad you figured it out sweetie and are on your way to fixing it! Funks are very easy to fall into and happens to us all! I have had more than my share! I soooo need to get back into the exercise habit. My knees just make it so hard, but I gotta do something soon!!!!  Biggest hugs for you sweetie!!!

YEA FOR LIZ.

ABOUT TIME YOU DID SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF. YOU ARE ALWAYS DOING FOR OTHERS AND I WONDERED IF YOU WEREN'T BURNING YOURSELF OUT. I COULD HEAR IT IN YOUR VOICE THE OTHER DAY. 

I TOLD YOU THAT I COULD BE A PAIN IN THE BUTT EVEN BEFORE YOU STARTED TO HELP. I AM SO GLAD THAT YOU WERE ABLE TO FIND ME TIME. I JUST WISH YOU COULD FIND MORE OF IT. 

BELIEVE ME I KNOW THE FEELING. WHEN MY KIDS WERE TEENS AND A LITTLE OLDER THEY COULD MAKE ME NUTS.( WAIT THEY STILL DO. LOL )  I HEARD ABOUT THESE GOLDEN YEARS WHEN I WOULD BE IN THE PRIME OF MY LIFE AND BE ABLE TO EJOY MY GRANDKIDS AND JUST RELAX. 

WELL THEY LIED TO ME. WHAT IN THE WORLD DID I DO WRONG.    NO I LOVE MY KIDS, GRAND KIDS, HUBBY MORE THEN LIFE IT SELF, BUT I TELL YOU SINCE SATURDAY MORNING IT'S BEEN JUST DAVE AND I. 

MY DAUGHTER, GRAND DAUGHTER AND SON IN-LAW WENT TO DISNEYLAND TILL TOMORROW NIGHT, AND DAVE AND I HAVE WORKED IN THE BACK YARD TOGETHER, BBQED, HAD MY SON AND DAUGHTER IN-LAW OVER SATURDAY FOR A BBQ  (WHICH I HARDLY EVER SEE MY SON ANYMORE SINCE HE HURT HIMSELF AT WORK AND IS DEPRESSED AND BEHAVING LIKE ME. WHICH SCARES ME TO DEATH ) WATCH THE RACES HELP ME IN MY GARDEN AND MAKE MUD PIES AND MUD MUFFINS WITH MY 8 YEAR OLD GRAND DAUGHTER.

 I DIDN'T REALIZE HOW MUCH I NEEDED TO JUST DO WHAT I WANTED TO DO. ME LIZ ME I HAVE BEEN OUT IN MY BACK YARD PLANTING AND ENJOYING THE FIRE PIT AND HUBBY. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT. I SURE DIDN'T. EVEN MY SON SAID MOM DO YOU KNOW IT'S LIKE 4 HOURS PAST YOUR BED TIME AND THIS WAS 9:30 PM. I WAS SHOCKED. 

HUBBY HAS TO GO BACK TO WORK AND TODAY I HAVE HAD HIM HOME SINCE THURSDAY. I HAVE MY LAST FULL DAY WITH OUT MY GRAND DAUGHTER AND BABY SITTING, AND HER PARENTAL UNITS.   THE DAY WILL BE ALL TO MYSELF FOR THE FIRST TIME IN SO MANY YEARS. DON'T KNOW WHAT I WILL DO. PROBABLY NOTHING.

MY 2 YEAR OLD GRAND DAUGHTER CALLED ME FROM DISNEYLAND AND SAID GRANDMA I HAVING FUN BUT I WANT TO COME HOME AND KISS YOU. I BOUGHT YOU ROCKS SOME FOR POPPY'S WATERFALL. ( SHE IS A ROCK LOVER AND TAKES THEM OUT OF DAVES WATER FALL) THERE RED BLUE AND BLACK AND WHITE. I BOUGHT YOU A PRESENT. NOW THAT IS JUST WHAT SHE SAID. HOW CAN I NOT MISS THAT LITTLE GIRL.

BUT YOU ARE SO RIGHT, ME TIME IS SO NEEDED FOR THE SOUL.

LIZ YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU ARE LOVED ON THIS BOARD AND BY ME AND VANESSA. PLEASE DON'T TRY NOT TO GET IN THAT FUNK AGAIN. REMEMBER THE ME ME ME TIME, YOUR SO RIGHT.

OMG I JUST WROTE A NOVEL AGAIN. LIZ I AM SO SORRY.
PLEASE STAY MENTALLY WELL AS WELL AS PHYSICALLY FIT.

LOVE YOU LOTS LADY!!!