THE NIGHT BEFORE...

  Well tomorrow is the day.  How do I feel?  Emotionally exhausted and kind of nervous,  but also elated.  I have been busy all day, getting last minutes items, hair appointment, nails, feet and bikini wax (I have never worn a bikini in my life, nor a wax where did that come) well, a girl has to look good on the operating table.  

My friend took my pics tonight and I am truly amazed how big I am.  But this is the last night at this weight      

I am truly amazed that the number of people that called today and asked me ARE YOU SURE?  YEAH I'M SURE!!! Did they think I was just joking? (duh) 
I have dieted my entire adult life and for me that started at 16.  I have struggled, cried and took great risk regarding my health to lose weight, all to no avail.  And then they have the nerve to ask, if I was sure, go figure.  

This has been a long journey just getting to the Night Before Surgery.  I am looking forward for the Recovery Nurse saying, "Shardon it's time to wake up," then I'll know that I am on the other side. I'm soooo looking forward to the loser's bench.

Oh, by the way I have to report at 8:00 a.m., and I called my  ride 10 minutes ago trying to find out where she was, because she wanted to stay the night with me.  When I asked her where she was, she said, at home.  I was waiting for you to call me. 

That was not the plan, Just last night at Bible Study she said, "I'm going to spend the night at your house, so that I will already be there, and you won't be late,"  Usually she calls me 50 times a day, it's a wonder that she get any work done at the office, but today she was waiting on me to call, YEAH RIGHT!!!  

As  I was typing this post, she called me back and said, "I don't want to add to your stress, but I started my cycle today and I'm dragging."   Now the plan is she'll be here at 5:30 in the morning.         

Well if she is not here at 5:35, I am gonna drive myself the 70 miles to the hospital (in commuter traffic) so that I can be on time. 

Because of people like her, my new motto is,:  LIVING MY LIFE LIKE IT'S GOLDEN.  I'm not dealing with people and their issues, I don't mean to be insensitive but I expected this much.    

Anyway enough of my drama. I have to find some new friends or change the way I deal with them.

See you all on loser's bench. 

 Good luck tomorrow.. You're gonna be a great "loser"

Thanks Lori

congratulations.  I can't wait to be where you are.  Best of luck and I hope you have a fast recovery.

You will be there before you know it.  Dr. Laport is a great surgeon, he was the surgeon for several of my friends.

Good luck tomorrow.  Hope everything goes with no surprises!  Looking forward to hearing how you did.  I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.
Carol

Carol thanks so much for commiting to my post.  Your day is just around the corner.  I will keep you posted.

I hope your ride doesn't flake on you tomorrow! My prayers are with you for a great day tomorrow!    hugs, Becky

Thanks Becky.  I hope she dosn't flake either.  But I have a for sure back up plan, ME.   See you on the loser's bench.

Becky, Thanks so much for your very kind email!  What a great message..... Amazing how much it means too! Jingels