Night before surgery JITTERS!!!
Well, I've done just about everything I can think of tonight to get ready for my surgery tomorrow morning. My bags are packed, my pillows are in the car. I am bringing a "chap-stick" and a CD player. I've done the bowel prep ballet...all day...and eaten jello to bursting.
Somehow, this all seems so unreal to me. Its hard to imagine that by tomorrow afternoon my body will undergo a dramatic change that will impact the rest of my life. I don't know if I am feeling worried or scared - or just excited at all the possibilities that are ahead of me.
This was no easy road either. As many of you know, I have been trying to obtain approval for about 2 years...finally had a surgery date for LAST October and then was told I needed the 6 months of a Dr. supervised program. Happily, I was scheduled for tomorrow with Dr. Blackstone.
Today, I am like a little kid that knows they are going to Disneyland for the first time...and can't sleep or relax. Of course I am afraid that I will forget something, but all in all I'm glad that everything has worked out the way it did.
It is all of you that have taught and inspired me. I have you to thank for keeping me positive when I just wanted to give up and resign myself to suffering in this body. I have read your stories, laughed and cried with you, and most important made some wonderful friends.
I will write again when I come home. Take care and God Bless.
Robin