RARE - 5month post op pic
Poohspal - I will get a new Avatar next time I get another picture on a ride. I really do love my motorcycles...
LissC - I am now 10lbs from goal!
Strange thing though, I still think I am heavy . There are times when I feel less than adequate. Like sometimes I feel like I eat too much and am over the 5 level, I look down expecting to see a large abdomen sticking out from my last meal and it is not there.
I have also noticed is that people look at me. This has happened a bit over the last few months. I think the "invisible fat person" is gone and people take the time to get eye contact. It took a while to figure this out. I first thought maybe my clothes were disheveled or my hair was unkempt and it made me feel insecure as they looked at me. I think it will take time for me to lose this self image of being inadequate... but I am working on it.
John,
The body dismorphic issues take a long time to get over if we ever do get over them. I passed 2 years on the 8th and have been at goal for months but I still hold up my size 4 pants and I KNOW that I can't fit in them. Then I put them on and they fit!!! Unfortunately, when I look in the mirror I still see much bigger. I SEE size 12 or 14. At least I don't see size 28+ but I definitely don't see size 4.
If you, or anyone, knows how to learn to see what other's see, bottle it and sell it...you'll make millions!
Dj
Pre-Op 316. Currently 134. Goal was 135 but I'm ecstatic.