Good News! Good News!! First I have four more pounds to go and I'm at goal.  I got my approval for my tummy tuck today. I had to appeal it but I got it. Now y'all know i am prazin da the Lor with my feet!!!

Sigh.

First of all, let me say  you look wonderful. You're success is inspiring!  You've done it all right, followed all the rules and now you're having all these emotions, and rightly so! There's nothing wrong with the way you feel, I think there are many, many of us who are, or have been in the exact same boat.

This is an absolutely crazy ride. People say that we take the "easy" way out and we're offended by it, when all the while we're thinking to ourselves "yeah, this IS really easy".  It's a  gift, but the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow turns out to be a little tarnished. We do get cravings, the old habits start to resurface and it's terrifying. Let that fear be your new catalyst for this stage of the ride. You can't let it rule your life, but let it another tool in your arsenal.

Now you know why Wendy 1 and I journal every day,  and why I weigh every day. Sure there are days where I might go to bed at 9:00 just because I already ate my 1400 cals and want to go rummage through the kitchen. There are also days where I enjoy a piece of cake at a birthday party, or maybe an extra latte or one made with....oh God...2% milk! But, I don't let it get me down, or at least not for too long because I know in my heart that tomorrow will bring another set of triumphs, and control over my life that I've never had before.

I'm sure you're going to get that last 10lbs off because you are one determined lady. Journaling and being totally honest with yourself will help you get there.  You might consider talking to Kelly Turpin in Conway about a MedGem test to help you get a handle on what your body needs as far as calories/carbs/fat now that you'll be maintaining. If you want her number, just let me know.

I hope my ramblings have helped. Believe me, I know just how you feel and I'm here for ya!

Hugs and smoochies

Thanks for the welcome!  I see the doctor tomorrow for my first fill and am very excited.  I will be glad to get a fill because I am starting to experience my first hungar pangs.  I don't like them!  My weight loss has slowed since the first few weeks but it is still going down.  I am 7 weeks out today and have lost a total of 38 pounds so that is nothing to sneeze at!  I lost 15 of that with the pre-op diet but, still, 23 pounds is 7 weeks is better than I ever did on Weigh****chers!  I'll keep you posted on my Friday weigh in.  (I'm trying to not obsess with the scale.  I had hubby hide it!)

Just wanted to vent for a minute --

I know I should be happy where I am.  A year ago, I never dreamed I would be down to a size 6!  In fact, those who asked me were told I would be thrilled if I could get to a size 10.  Now that I'm in the healthy range, though, I've seemed to stall and even gain a few pounds!!  I know my eating habits are mostly to blame.  I snack a lot and not on the best things.  I have excuses, sure: I exercise a lot, therefore I need more calories/carbs.  I'm close to goal, so it's okay to eat more.  However, I fear I'm losing sight of the gift I've been given and that the RNY is just a TOOL.

Today, I'm rededicating myself to logging my food.  I may not publi**** here, but I will log it thoroughly and HONESTLY.  I'd really like to get 10 more pounds off, if I can.  If I put forth an honest effort and my body completely rebels, I will accept that I'm meant to live in the 140's, no matter how much I'd love to weigh 135 or 125 lbs.  I'm determined to be healthy, no matter what the number is.

I didn't expect that I would have cravings.  I didn't expect that I would want to graze.  I feel like I'm failing, that I should have prepared more for this stage of the game.  This is hard!!!!  I got used to it being easy... it makes me sad that the easy part seems to be behind me. :(

ok...so my husband bought me a swimming pool to occupy my "summer break"

this weekend I will be at a ranch in Hot Springs for 2 days of vacation

I have not even looked for a job.......

life is good

hope all is well with my OH friends
love Tammy........