LOL,  I only lifeguard as a fill in... one of two lifeguards for 200 at risk youth 16-24 years old. My main job is managing a dorm of male students- I also drive a bus to take them places, do Tons of paperwork & counseling, and lately have been playing Dr. Mom as there has been a virus going through the dorm. Fun stuff!  :-) I wish lifeguarding was all I had to do!!

Morning everyone....it's Friday!!

It's going to be a spectacular weekend. So.....what are you doing about it??  No excuses about rain, heat, snow, ice, tornadoes, hurricanes, tsunamis, cyclones, fog, ice, or any other cataclysmic weather activity to deter you from getting out and exercising!!!

You don't have to run or jog (except you, Wendy II), but you can park at the far end of the parking lot when you go to the grocery store. Steve, I'm sure you'll be out golfing, why wouldn't you??

So. What moving are YOU doing to lose?

ok...lets try this post again...

they are a horrible addiction and I am not doing well getting off them,

I need cokaholics anonymous or something

So my advice....get off them stay off them and never look back.

Its the one thing I cant get rid of, I could go with out eating but I have an emotional bond with Coke. I hate that I ever drank the first one as a kid.

Everytime something bad happened...I got a coke and all was better.

Its evil....  thats all I have to say

I worked for my sister and her husband for the last 7 yrs....they fired me. Long story but it was family related and I would not let them run my life after hours as well as during business hours. Now no one in my family speaks to me now.....my mom and other sister included and my sister and he family.

I am behind on bills, stressed out, panic attacks (nothing new been having them since 1999) again, my daughter is on her own and struggles daily but works at burger king...her weight is well over 200.....I passed my obesity on to her.

My son is in 10 and 11Th grade classes this year as he did not do so well last year. He hates school and tells me daily he is moving to his dads  ASAP!!!  Yeah OK......when you graduate buddy!!!!

My addiction to coke is it is my comfort food. My Dr knew it was like smoking for me. I have tried to kick it but....it is a very serious emotional bond. I have been through alot in my life and the coke was the one thing that was aways there.

I don't open up much but I feel I can trust all of you.......I was 16 got pregnant by an older guy (23) and my step dad was so ashamed he forced my mother to put me into a maternity home and stated I will not return home with the child. I held my baby boy for a few minutes when he was 3 days and and then they took him away......he will be 23 in November... once my rights were signed over the wonderful step dad kicked my mom and I out within days of signing paper. Oh course it was too late my baby was gone. This eats at me daily.....Its a closed adoption. I know nothing.

OK fast forward through one bad marriage( my 1st husband beat me often and tried to wreck the car to cause me to miscarry my daughter)    to another marriage( my 2ND husband cheated on me and had 2 women pregnant at the same time at the peak of my obesity) and my RNY, 26 days after my RNY we had some serious legal issues regarding my military husband and I was devastated and attempted suicide. I spent 3 days in a state hospital in a Boston suburb. I took tons of serious pills, having just had 2 surgeries the month prior I had good pills and plenty of pain meds for back issues.....for some reason the Lord had other plans......the meds did not absorb like they should have and did the opposite...instead of knocking me out and killing me.....they made me hyper, strong, invincible and totally nuts......the medics had to break a wall down and then chase me and hog tie me to get me in the ambulance....I even got out of the handcuffs in the ambulance and they had to lay across me to hold me down. That was 26 days after RNY....  then came Sept 11........... I was 4 hours from NYC...... our military was was on lock down and that was harsh on my panic attacks....

Now I have this stress, NO JOB, Family disowned me, NO MONEY, no desire to workout or obtain my certification for personal trainer, my back pain has returned, my panic attacks are full blown

I have no insurance now and don't know what I will do about my synthroid and anxiety meds . I don't have a Dr to go to now.

Now to top things off....SORRY STEVE.......I think I am going through menopause at 39. I have been showing signs for a couple years.....horrible night sweats and now my monthly friend....well lets just say she is not so monthly.....That's a good thing tho......  I am sick of her being my BEST FRIEND.........she never makes me happy and makes my clothes not fit, what kind of friend does that???


OK so I babbled about nothing that interests anyone, but I figured I should finally fess up to my source of stress.

I have to get back on track......this is going to be harsh but it has to be done. I am planning on Monday.....before anyone says oh she is putting it off no I am not, I have read that people are more likely to achieve success with things like diet and exercise if they start on Monday, and I always start things on Mondays as it is like a job.....first day of the week......

OK well......I am sorry for talking so much.......I will close here...

thanks for reading.....maybe getting this stuff off my chest will help......

Tammy

Three weeks!??!?!?  I am so proud of you!

Monday is bad, I think Meg and I have appointments Wednesday and Thursday afternoons next week, but we'd be available around 5 if so.