the girl who never posts

I have taken a leave of absence from OH. I do not want to be a bad exapmle to anyone with my weight re-gain. Since losing my job in July I have packed on 20 pounds. Lost my insurance and all meds I needed. I contacted Little Rock Dr's and well they must not want to see me either as it has been 3 or 4 months since I called to see if they would take me on as a post op for follow up since I have not really had any in 8 yrs. Guess I am screwed. 

So to avoid being a Debby Downer I dont want to post on here and make new ops question the surgery and its wonderful benefits. I also feel like a failure and I am not a good example to set for anyone.

2010 is already a crappy year. Neighbors house burned down and damaged mine, insurance wont pay because its less than my deduct. My refrigerator has broke. Someone I knew from work died of the flu. My 16 yr old son is giving me fits...must be puberty. My gym membership expires in 3 weeks and I cant renew...not like I have went in months anyhow...but the tanning was nice. I have a ton of grey haiir and no money to color it....lol.....my depression is full blown, my thyroid is way off and my back pain and anxiety are all back as well as major head aches, I have no ins and no means to pay for lab work for thyroid. My weight is way up there....I am not far from my starting weight.

So anyhow, I wanted to say I love all of you but cant post on here anymore for now. I am on facebook. Tammy Buckwalter.

See ya around and if the scale starts dropping I may be back.
God Bless all of you wonderful people. Keep up the good work. You all look great.

I'm on facebook much more than I am on here nowadays too. 

I don't think you set a bad example.  I wouldn't know you were even regaining except that you just said so!  (Of course I am not on here so much anymore - so I might miss a lot.)

I think everyone is feeling more down lately (about a variety of issues).  It is just so COLD that it's hard to get out and about and active, etc.  It is so cold outside that it's painful at time.  Seriously.  A lot of the time lately, I don't even want to go out the door in the morning because I know how bad the cold is going to be.  So I understand not wanting to get out and be active too. 

Have you got a Wii?  I love my Wii and you can do that without going out of the house at all - exercise right in your living room! 

We're already friends on facebook, so you have my cell # (on my info section of my profile page).  So you can holler at me anytime. 

Wen