Starting over!!!

I am always one that sits back and reads the posts and secretly says, 'yep, know where she is coming from' or  'I know what she means'.  I just want to tell you all thank you for your support.  We all have our addictions, we all must be addicted to food, or we wouldnt be in this situation that we are in.  But, we have something special here on this website, called friendship, understanding, and love....thank you all for that! 
I am excited about Saturday, I look forward to meeting you all. 
Hang in there guys, I know that we all stumble everynow and then, but the main thing is that we get up, dust ourselves off and go again.

Court.....

do your crunches on a stability ball.....you can get one at wal mart for 20 bucks or so. You get a better range of motion with the ball as you can go back farther and engage the muscles more.

you tailbone will be normal soon...took mine about 1-2 yrs.....its lack of cushion I think.....your booty shrinkin.......dayum.....I still got my booty.......

I posted another thread.......you will know me by the shirt.......it will be bright in color and say OHAR on the back and TABS on the left breast.

Look for my lil red car with dealer tags and you will know I am there....dodge stratus......it has mini boxing gloves hanging from the rearview mirror.

see you there sweetie

hugs
Tabs

Hi, it is good that you have called and talked to Addie!  Nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about.  I personally have not gained or lost any weight in almost a year.  I know that I am sad I haven't lost anymore, but also happy that I haven't gained any either.  I go up and down 2 pounds or so now and then.  I eat fairly healthy meals, but I am a grazer.  I take a nibble here or a nibble there.  I don't mean I eat a big snack or anything, just that I may grab a bite of a multi-grain rice cake then put it back in the bag for another time.  Or pop a couple wheat thins or a bite of ice cream.  I rarely eat breakfast, but I do eat a good full lunch.  I have been making sure of that because for a good part of the year all I was eating was a good dinner as my only actual meal, and sometimes I would eat lunch, but not to often.  I think it is just as bad to not eat as it is to eat to much.  

So now I eat a good bowl of soup for lunch, one that doesn't have noodles or rice in it.  And is healthy.  At dinner I am making sure I eat all my protein first before I start on anything else.  I have started waiting a full hour before I drink again, whereas before I would drink within 15 minutes.  

It was so easy to get off track that I never noticed it until I was off for a while.  I still take my vitamins and meds everyday.  I walk everyday. 

I have been ashamed and felt like a failure sometimes.  I know I am not, I just feel like it sometimes though.  I am glad that this subject has come up.  It lets me know that I am not the only one who has gotten off track now and then.  

And Susan is right, this is a place for support, I need to come here when I am feeling down and talk to everyone.  Not hide because I am not eating properly or because I got lazy on my vitamins again.  I should come and chat about here, so others can know that it can happen.

To Janoice, who are you going to be seeing for pain management?  I see Dr. Umerah here in Searcy, he is so good and understanding.  He isn't loose with his pen and RX pad by any means, but he is very comforting to talk to, he understand about pain management, it is what he solely specializes in.  I have spoken to some patients who have come from all over the state to see him.  He also has a office at Baptist in LR.  I take methadone and hydrocodone every day, 6 pills in total.  I thank god I have not become addicted, but I know many who have, and some who are very badly addicted to the point of inflicting severe pain to themselves in order to get pain medication.  Addiction is nothing to be ashamed of, pain meds are very strong and addicting drugs. 

I have not been on here for a LONG time but felt compelled to stop by and glad I did.    I have been sitting at the same weight for about 4 months now.   Getting very very discouraged!!     When you talk to people that are not on this weight loss journey they do not understand.  They just say you are doing good and if you dont loose any more weight you still look good.  UGHHHH    I do not want to be in the 200's any more!!!!!    I have been sitting at 209-214 for around 4-5 months.     So I am glad to get back on this site and see that I am normal and this is just another part of this journey and there is great support here.   Thanks to everyone who has posted and keep up the good work.