Starting over!!!

Thanks for posting.....as you all know I have had one hell of a ride. I think alot of my issues are the fact the last time I saw my doc was about 6 weeks out. So I never knew how to properly eat and drink. I have been winging it on my own.

I know my failure to follow rules has hurt me, but it has not ruined me. I am such a horrible stress eater....still.....it sucks.

Yesterday was 4 weeks no cokes. Do I miss them...yes do I want one YES!!! The last week has been the worst by far.

I weighed the week I stopped drinking them and came in at 172ish. I have gained since then too......I am ravenous all the time with out my 1 coke.

Caffeine is not as bad for me as some. I think I may be immune to it. I take vivarin with coffee and do not get a jolt.....same thing with red bull or monster drinks I have tried while traveling to TX on emergency notice.....had to stay awake. So I dont think caffeine is an issue but the headaches are.....they are still with me.

I am ashamed and horrified to post on here because I am not a success. I dont want to go to the walk but will do it anyhow. How can I set an example when I am not an example to follow??

Maybe my issues should be a wake up call to others.....maybe that's the example I am being....maybe I have to sacrifice some to save someone else from my experiences.

I know we all preach this.....follow what your dr says.....well I dont have a dr and I am going to follow what Rhonda is doing starting tomorrow as today is a wash....I will follow her diet regime.

Very few people of the many registered with this board talk to me. I have grown fond of all of you . Maybe people dont want to talk to me because they are afraid of becoming what I have.

It is important for all of us to know what can happen.....no I dont like being the laughing stock of the group but because of my nature....if it helps someone else to not become a failure then I am ok with that.

Too many people lurk.....I know there is someone else out there with issues....maybe not regain but others.....you need to step up and ask your new family for support or advice. We are all here and should not shun anyone, be afraid to ask a question, or comment in a healthy supportive manner.

Maybe I have been through so much I see things differently. I have regrets and wishes and dreams. It may just be a harder road for me in order to meet those dreams and wishes. I wont give up.

I hope to see more activity of what the board is really here for. Of course post you daily activities and let us know when something is wrong or in need of prayer....we are always here for that. It is just to easy to get caught up in the day to day and then you start to have problems.

hugs
Tammy

Oh, Tammy, I'm not afraid of you!  I still think of you as a success.  I don't care that you've gained back 40 or 50 pounds, you've still stopped it before it got where it was before.  Don't you know how much you rock by now?  I am extremely grateful you're around -- I look to you as how things will be long-term, and it's so valuable to have your experience and perspective here.  Please don't think such terrible things about us or yourself.

I need to get back on here more often!  I miss you guys.  See you this weekend, right? ;-)

PS:  I'm SO PROUD of you for kicking the coke habit!!!!!!!!

Tammy,
I guess we all have our own little demons to fight.  But to have other to help us fight them means so much as you already know.  Even if it is long distance.  I look forward to meeting you at the walk and getting to know you.  To me you are a very strong women.  Someone I would love to call a friend.  Thank you for inspiring all of us in the small ways that you have.  I have never said anything before but you have inspired me over this last year.  As I said I was just to ashamed of myself to post.  But it seem you and Rhonda no matter what the problems you are facing you have posted and also given some great advice to others.  I know now that I am not alone in all of this and that is how I was feeling.
As said before look forward to meeting you at the walk.
Huggers,
Jan

Jan why have we never spoke???

I am always open to priv messages. I am not expert, I am someone who has struggled her whole life and keeps struggling. I admire you for posting your issues. My issues are the Cokes and my food addiction with emotional eating. Somedays it is pure hell. Somedays ahhh no biggie.

Yes I will be at the walk. I am driving in that morning. I should be there by 730-745ish. I hope I dont get lost.....I do that....and in this new car.....oh lord.....its a fancy red sports car....the cops will be all over it with dealer tags.....hahha   I am not skeered.....

You are never alone. No I may not face your issues first had but you know what.....I have family members who have abused illegal drugs and alcohol. It is not the same as a script but it is the same as in addiction and how it can take a wonderful life to the bottom real fast in many ways.

I dont post much because someone once flamed me in a pm and suggested I not be on this board as I am not from Ark, and then someone ranted about my breast implants and how I refer to them as twins.....ummm they are mine and cost a hellova lot of money....I can refer to them however I chose. I was flamed for calling my trainer a gym nazi and spelling it wrong. (Guess she never saw Seinfeld with the Soup Nazi)....and was horrifed as to how I could compare the two. It was in a joking manner and I misspelled it on purpose because I meant no harm.

But young lady for you to not post while going through this is uncalled for....you need to start checking in daily so I wont have that to worry about you either.......I am a worryer (is that a word) ya know!!!

Anyhow......we are here for you.....please post more often so we know you are ok and we will support you every step of the way the best we can.

hugs
Tammy.....................see you Saturday

well, you all know I have been struggling... I have had this 5 pounds come  and go... Like today, I weighed and was 190... the other day 195... I dont understand.... Have not been overeating, dont think im getting in enough protein... i have been thinking about doing the liquid diet again, to start over again, but dad days I dont need to, because Im not over eating or eating things I shouldnt be, just need to kick up my protein...

My dear lil Court.......could you be holding water??? you know some women retain water the week after the cycle as well as before. Mother nature aint she a hoot!!!!

If you think you are lacking in protien then up it. What are you taking in? You are still in your early stages and I dont think you should go liquid unless a doc says so. I think protien and more water. Most prepared foods are loaded with sodium. Are you keeping tabs on it?

How are the workouts coming? If you have been doing the same things with no problems you can either increase intensity or weights.....sometimes a small jolt to the workout helps too. You should not switch your whole program but maybe add something extra....jump rope is good a step bench or BOSU ball is good. Get some boxing gloves and a bag....great cardio!!!!!!!

have a good one
luv Tammy

Tammy, I just love it when you guys call me that =) I have not had a cycle for 1 1/2 mnths, but I did check about the water holding, and my dad says I am not because he could tell when he looked at my ankles and pressed on them to see if  there was dent left, and there was not... 

I am lacking in protein and water intake... I am jumping right on that.... I can not do the crunches, they hurt my tailbone too bad, but I DO Need to nget back in the room and sttart up again.... Once I do these things, I will post and let you all know how I am doing.... I LOVE Jump rope!!! And Boxing would be awesome =) I will have to try those 2 things.... Tammy, Your WONDERFUL And I can't wait to meet you on Saturday.... But, knowing me I will not be able to recognize you, and will be soooooooo lost, so you will have to come fid me =) Love yah

Hang in there, Court!  I bet you're just plateauing.  I agree, you don't need the liquid diet just yet... maybe just a change in your exercise or upping your protein.  Give it a little time and things will start moving again.  Make sure you measure, too.  Could be one of those times your body is rearranging itself.

Take care, sweetie!

Wendy =)

I have not heard from you in a while... I've missed you =( I think your right! You and Tammy pretty much nailed what I think is wrong too.... I have been measuring, eating about 1/2 cup of food, 3 meals 1 snack.... And Not near enough protein or water. And I need to get back in the exercise room=) I will keep you posted on how everything is going after I start getting back on track....

Love yah

I've got to hit the hay soon, but I wanted to say how proud I am of you and everyone else in this thread for getting back on track!  Slurp and drink away.  I'll be rooting for you as you do the oh-so-fun liquid diet again, but I bet it will get you back on track like Addie says. :)