Support Needed, feeling pretty bad

I'm needing some support and advice. I started my HMR's on Wednesday, that first day was fine. Made it to Thanksgiving, had a shake for breakfast and lunch. NUT told me to eat a very light Thanksgiving dinner w/ family. Did that and did great. Made it through Friday, it was hard because I went grocery shopping for my family and the temptation was everywhere. But I kept talking to myself reminding myself only 12 more days of this. Today was horrible, I had a shake for breakfast and packed a few bottles of water and crystal light, 3 pickle spears and headed off to a pageant w/ my daughter for the day. Well around noon I started getting a very bad headache and now it won't go away. Everyone there was eating pizza, burgers, fries, etc. I wanted to eat so bad, but did not give in. I had my pickles and water. This was the worst day ever. I just came home and had some broth and getting ready to have a shake a lay down. I just want to know if this is normal behavior for me to feel so miserable. I don't want to be a failure at this because I know its going to be just as hard after surgery. I wish I could sleep the next 12 days,lol. Maybe because I didn't get 3-4 shakes in is why I have a headache. I can't seem to get all 5 shakes at all. Anyways, thanks for letting me ramble. Keep me in your prayers. I look forward to Dec 9th where I can have popscicles and jello, lol. Then Dec 10th will be surgery day, so all this will be behind me.

Hang in there, Michelle!  We're so close to our surgery dates now and it sounds like you've done a terriffic job with your pre-op diet so far....keep it up!  We'll be though this in no time flat and on to a brand new healthy lifestyle with better bods to boot....you can do it...I can do it....we wanna be LOSERS!!!!! 

Thank you for the encouraging words. last night I finally drank a shake, took an ambien and went to bed. Still have the headache this morning, but I'll deal with it. Having a shake now and plan to take a walk here in a bit. Can't wait to meet you on the losers bench!!!
Michelle

The 4^th and 5^th days were my hardest with the shakes.  I had the headaches too; I chalked them up to not having my caffeine fix (I was a Mt. Dew Girl).  Just keep your mind focused on the big prize and keep busy away from food—don’t forget to drink lots of water.   I couldn’t do the 5 shakes per day, I think the most I drank was 3.  Keep doing what you are doing; YOU CAN AND WILL DO IT!

Thank you for responding to me, its so great to know others have gone through the same thing. Then I don't think its just me being a big baby, lol. Did you still lose some weight even though you only got 3 shakes a day? I'm so worried that not getting the 5 will keep me from losing and I don't want them to reschedule my surgery. This is going to be the best Christmas present ever.
Thanks a bunch.
Michelle

I can totally relate to the headaches a few days into the shakes.

Honestly, I think SOME of that is tension.  (I know it was for me.)

But I think some of it is the body making changes too... coming off all those addictive substances that have helped make us fat.... sugars & simple carbs mostly.  But it is also going off the carbonated beverages and coffees, etc for some people. 

When our bodies get on ANY more "pure" diet (not just HMRs, but anything like that), and we suddenly discontinue the addictive and somewhat toxic substances that we have been ingesting for years... it's bound to have side effects.

The headaches DO get better.  I promise. 

Just keep telling yourself... you only have to do this for XXX many more days to get your surgery and your new, better life.  You CAN do it.  I know you can. 

This is THE HARDEST PART.  Beginning 1 day out of surgery, at least you get real cream soups, etc.  NO post-surgery diet stage is as hard as this. 

You CAN do it.  We are ALL rooting for you. 

Wendy, thanks so much for the kind words. When i woke up this morning still with a headache I wanted to cry, but I laid in bed for a minute thinking about how I would be crying if my insurance company would have denied me or how I will be crying if Dr. Baker cancels my surgery because I cheat and eat something, so that got me over my pity moment quickly. I'm going to do this and god knows I want it so bad. Listening to all of you guys is really helping me alot. Thanks again.
Michelle

I agree with Wendy, this is much harder than the post-op.  I had the horrible headaches, too, and I'm so sorry for what you're suffering now.  It *will* get better, I promise!

Thanks for responding to my post. Its wonderful to have such great support. My husband is great, but he's about the only major support i have. All my "friends" are being supportive, but at the same time they sit in front of me eating their fast food and all the while, saying how great I'm going to look after my surgery. I keep telling them, for me I really don't care how I look, I want to put on some of the years of my life I have lost  due to all the health problems. I want to be around longer for my kids and more active with them than I can be right now. But the whole time they are talking to me eating that jun****ep thinking "well keep eating that crap and you'll be in my shoes very soon." Anyways, thanks again.
Michelle

Michelle, I know it's hard but it will get better.  It is the caffeine and carb withdrawal.  It will pass in a few days.  The main purpose of this diet is to shrink your liver so that it is easier to maneuver around in there during surgery.  Most obese people have enlarged or fatty livers and this helps shrink them tremendously and helps to avoid complications during surgery.  You can't help but lose weight during this time so don't sweat it.  You can do this.  Just hang tough.  In a day or two you will wake up feeling better.  Then it's a much easier ride from there.  We are all rooting for you.