Death to the Fat Girl!

I just posted a blog about body image.  I hope you will take the time to read it.

http://luvsexytrstno1.blogspot.com/2008/08/death-to-fat-girl .html

I think we can all relate to how you feel.  I sometimes deal with the "fat" person inside me.  I don't consider myself fat, but I don't consider myself skinny either.  At just a little over 200lbs, I am not quite sure what I am.  This journey plays a lot of mind games with us.  Our bodies look one way but we see ourselves differently.  We still think like we did before surgery.  I am still afraid of climbing up on things (like a chair or step stool) I still hold tight to handrails when climbing stairs.  I still fear that my weight will break something, even though it won't.  The fair is coming up and I am afraid to even try to fit into a ride seat, for fear of the same embaressment I had years ago when I tried to get on a ride, it was full of people and tons of people in line and also watching the ride, and in front of all those people I had to have a worker help me with the seat belt and the metal bar, only to have to get off the ride in front of those people because i didn't fit. 

I think being honest with how we feel is a good step towards beating those thoughts.  Thanks for sharing.