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i am about 8 pounds from my latest goal of 140. I changed my mind....I am woman and can do that. I want to get into the 120's...even if it is 129. Tracy the trainer is getting ready for competition as I mentioned in an earlier post. Lastnight we went to a comp in Tunica...once again I was inspired by the women competiting. Even if the only thing I achieve is to say I got up there and put forth the effort and got healthy once again......well thats rewarding in itself. This is going to be harder than reaching my goal. He said I am doing too much cardio for my lifting,I have to change everything,,,,,,,,my eating is next. I have almost given up the cokes. I am *****y but hey its my right to be *****y. He said I have to consume 1290 to reach my new goal. Thats alot of eating. My fear of food is back and he is annoyed by that. I dont know how to fix it. I am afraid to eat, I fear I will get fat again. So I have stopped eating once again...I gt by on just one meal and a bite or two hear and there.....I will try to do better....but it is hard.

 

Well anyhow, I gotta go

love and kisses

tabbykat

Hey, what a nice surprise to see you here on the weekend! Don't usually see your smiling face until Monday  LOL I just can't tell you how proud I am of you for sticking to the exercise routine and for getting out of that comfort zone and traveling all the way to Tunica.  Wow, and  WOW!!! Now, as far as this eating thing. You're preaching to the choir here about eating and being afraid. I totally freaked when my Nut told me to go to 1500 cals a day, and then I had to go up to 2000 to gain back some of what I lost when I got sick. I was sick to death of eating, and scared too, but as soon as I got back to 122 I dropped the cals back to 1500. Guess what?  I lost 3 lbs AGHHHHHHHHH  It's a never ending battle, isn't it? Make sure you keep us informed on the visit to LR. I for one want to see you!  Maybe we can make it a group get together???  Fun, huh? Big weekend hugs

I feel for you with getting off those cokes.   I was so addicted to caffeine free (& sometimes not) diet sodas (diet sprite &/or diet coke) that I went off them a month or so pre-op because I didn't want to go through diet soda withdrawal as a post-op while I was recovering.  It was hard, but I did it.  I'll never go back to them for many reasons, one of which being I'm scared I'll be right back on them as bad as ever if I do. You can get off them though.  Believe me if I could, ANYBODY can. 

Oh wow can I relate to the coke thing.  Not had my surg yet but had to give up my cokes and lost 40 pounds when I did woot woot.  I went to one of Dr Bakers talkes last November and when I got home I made up my mind this was the road I needed and wanted to take.  I had been smoking 2 cartons of cigs a week and dranking around 2 cases of cokes a week.  I decided then and there no more so I laid them both down and not touched one sence.  Talk about a Bi*ch I was one big time.  But it was worth it I can breath now LOL. Huggers, JanT