ot/ one of those days

I am having one.  woke up with no desire to return to the gym... slept about 3 hours........ i have cried all night from stress... panic attacks are back..... cant eat and when I do i throw up.......... i have an overwhelming sense of sadness...... am I the only one who has these days? my birthday is monday and i feel so dommed and worthless and do not want to celebrate i am at a loss. tammy

I wake up at 520 every morning so I can get a walk in before I get ready for work. There are many days that I would like to turn over, pull the covers over my head and go back to sleep. I have no idea how I stay motivated, but I do. So my answer would be...no you're not alone in that sense, although I don't work it nearly as much as you do. My husband and I have been married less than a year so I can also sympathize with the "cried all night from stress" comment.  Live it up girl! Isn't this your 38th birthday(forgive me if I'm wrong)? This is the only 38th birthday you'll ever have so party like a rockstar! From what I hear, you know exactly what I'm talking about

i work out at night......every night but today this whole sadness thing struck and I said  "f" the gym I dont want to return. Several reasons. I know I have to tho and Tracy wont let me quit. maybe it is alot of things.... birthday, daughter graduated high school, son leaves for the summer to be with dad, husband moved out, money is tight, my 15 yr old cat is dying, my mom spies on me, my sister runs my life, PMS, blah blah blah. maybe I am afraid to be alone now.........I dont know. I dont have any friends. Just my friends on here. My neighbors do not know me and do not like me.....they suck. I dont fear 38, but I may be facing celebrating it alone...........I dunno. anyhow........I just spent the most amazing 20 minutes on a secluded beach....haha not really I was in the tanning bed. Gotta fake and bake......gonna wear a bikini this summer and gonna work it too. ok well I was just wondering if everyone has my days or is it me??? thanks love ya tammy

Girl I so feel your pain.  I have to MAKE myself go to the gym.  I have a wonderful husband who is such a great support, cooks for me and all that jazz, but I still have days that I want to hide my fat head in the dirt and pretend Im the ugly duckling.   I dont know what causes this, maybe its being a woman, I dont know.  They tell us how wonderful we will feel physically after surgery, but I dont think there is a way to prepare us mentally for all the changes we will experience.  You have alot going on for sure, I wish we were closer together, cuz your 38th Bday would be the Birthday of Birthdays!!!!  Can you say Sugar Free Margaritaville while my hubby drove us around and let us play the radio and sing at the top of our lungs, or maybe we'd find a beach to flop out on and pretend (no, KNOW) we were the sexiest beasts there.   Thats what I do when we fish, I sit out there on the private dock, catch the pishes and pretend Im Mrs. America w/a fishing pole!!! But yes darling, I have those days, and I hate them, I fight it all the time, and try to hide it from my dear sweet husband so he wont think its him!!!  Hang in there, we are gonna make it!!! Hugs and cheers, Rhonda D. P.S. Called ya back, guess we gonna play phone tag!!!

its rough. the thought of yet another failed marriage, being alone the whole summer. maybe it is MANOPAUSE.........i dont really know. my mood swings are really bad. Alot on my mind. ya know 22 days after my RNY, I tried to over dose. I had my life starting over and I could not at that time handle the mental changes I was going through, and at that time my then marriage was ending in a major way. This is a hard hard journey I am on. I hope some day it changes. I am disfunctional after all............oh the humanity fishing and thinking your ms america...................... girl when I am on the elliptical for 1 hour and cursing my trainer I see myself as a gnome with a boob job sweatin her ass off in a gym on a piece of equipment she is too short to see over the top of........... ya know what.........I have vacation...........when is the next support group ya'll are having?? I am gonna road trip........better have another pole....I can sit there and look good but dont know much about no fishin....I am a city slicker....... tabbykat...who needs prozac a martini a fishing pole and the company of good friends like Rhonda with a husband who does not mind driving a drunken GNOME about town......

Lots of folks would tell you to buck up and get over it, but not me!  When I turned 38 I thought my life was over.  Never mind 40 or 50, 38 just threw me for a loop.  You have tons of stuff going on in your life, it's little wonder you are stress and having panic attacks. Are you able to get medication for it?  How about counseling?  Our insurance covers eight free visits to a therapist once a year.  It would be wonderful for you to come and see us at the next support group meeting. It's the second Thursday of July, whatever date that is.....schedule not at hand right now.  Anyway, we'd all love to see you there. Bigs hugs

Am I confused, are we not having one in June?? Please let me know!! I dont have a schedule, I just show up the second Thursday of every month!!! Hugs, Rhonda

No need for you to be confused when I'm obviously confused enough for the both of us!!!!! I'm so intent on my trip home in July that I said July instead of June.  Yep, I'm bad.   Thanks for catching this before anyone else saw it and thought there wasn't one in June. Hi to Mr Mike Love ya

I'm so sorry you're having a bad day.   We ALL have bad and even horrible days.   I can DEFINATELY relate to the stress situation.   I hope that tomorrow is better for you and hope you keep us posted! Wen