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Hi Debra The night before surgery my DH was working late. I was here at OH reading all of the posts and doing my best to not be anxious. Well, before you knew it I was sitting here bawling my eyes out, sobbing.  How could I have let myself come to this? What was wrong with me that I didn't have enough self control to not be able to do this on my own? I called a friend of mine who had had her RNY a year earlier and she convinced me I was indeed doing the right thing and that I'd be ok.  Yep, she was right..... My surgery was on a Thursday, home on Saturday, driving on Monday and back to work a week later.  I've lost 107lbs and now wear a size 4.  I actually weigh less now than I did in 5th grade.  You bet I'd do it again! If you get too bad, PM me and I'll give you my phone #.  Take care

Thank you for the responses.  Susan, it sounds like you were exactly where I was.  I have done a lot of thinking & analyzing in the last 36 hours, and I'm back on track!  I know me, and I know that if I put off the surgery in the hopes of yet another attempt on my own, I'd be sitting here in a year in the same boat.  Actually, the boat would be deeper in the water, because I'd probably have gained another 20 to 30 pounds.   I'm doing this!  I'm psyched!  This is going to be successful, and I'm going to use my new resistance bands (that came in the box in the mail) to help me get into shape after my lap-band.   When I completed my degree in psychology, I remember telling my mom (who was a psychiatric patient and was ashamed of her mental problems) that there is no shame in getting help.  Some things are just too big for us to handle on our own.  Now I'm going to take my own advice.  The WLS is going to give me the help I need.  I'm still going to have to do it "on my own."  I will have to eat the right things (especially my protein), exercise every day, and learn to look at myself differently, since the predominate way I see myself is fat (rather than kind, smart, successful, a good mom, etc.).   I believe I can do this, and I REALLY appreciate the help and encouragement on here from folks who have been there and blazed the path.