2fer 2sday almost over

I'm baaaaaaaaaaaack!!!! hello everyone....how are we at the end of this tuesday??? doing ok here. not really hungry...ate my one wee lil rib and low fat cotto cheese, 2 s/f jello packs, cup o coffee black and unsweet, and about 96.9 ounces of water , protien shake and chicken broth.  my sister and co worker are taunting me with snicker candy bars. I am fighting off the urge. I need to get out of this office. But I am doing ok....... ok on a more serious note.....i went to the pharmacy to pick up my sons meds.......the lady who works in there just lost her daughter......she was only 21 and died a month ago. This poor woman is back at work, anyhow she was crying today. She touched my hand and whispered to me..."I cant control myself today"....I am very sensitive...so I started crying...I only know her from the pharmacy. So I cried the whole way back to work, and thoughts were going through my head.....how can I sit here and feel bad about not eating food or drinking my daily coke.....this woman just buried her daughter on the exact same day and time that she would have graduated from Ark State in Jonesboro.  We are all having rough days...or in my case months.....but it could be far worse. How do you get through the day after you bury your child?? I am not sure what she died from...I know she was diabetic and had multiple health issues.....her illness began as pnuemonia. Such sadness. My heart aches for this woman. I dont want to bring anyone down...as my earlier post was all happy. It is just so sad. We (losers) have all been given a second chance so to speak....this girl did not even get to live to graduate college. Make the most of your new life, follow the rules and get out there and experience life. Trust me...you all will be able to do so much. I have. I am happy to see how people here post about trips to magic springs or riding a horse or even being able to walk the block and not pass out. I am coming on 6 years post op.....there is alot I need to do too. Today you might be sore from surgery...or not feeling well...or really tired, it goes away.  Trust me. Grasp this new life by the horns take advantage of the second chance you have been given and run like hell.

I am fighting a small amount of re-gain. Some of it came on after my boob job.....but I am hating it regardless. It is only 10-20 pounds I would like to lose, but it feels like 100. I am working on it. I weighed 162.5 on Sunday.....today it was 158.5. Mostly water retention but it has to start somewhere.  Ok I am gonna go home at 5 and walk on that stinking elliptical I do hate so much...I want those buns of steel....to go with the thunderous nipples I thought I had..... talk to ya later taters love tammy and the twins

Ok, now this sounds like our Tammy. Sometimes it takes an experience like yours at the pharmacy to make us open our eyes to how good our lives really are. I'm proud of you for getting in all tha****er and protein. You remember the basics and you can do this. Going back to work has its challenges for me. Yesterday I had:  4 oz low fat cottage cheese and split a small Wendy's chille between lunch and dinner. Didn't get home until 9:00, but at least I drank my protein, got in my vitamins and water. Food is so over rated!! If I keep this up I'll have those last pounds gone in no time. Keep your chin up honey, it will show off the twins better. Hugs to ya