Help I can't seem to stop!

I am so embarrassed to be writing this. I had gastric surgery 2 yrs ago this past Oct. I am so mad at myself, because I never did reach my goal. I never got out of my two's. I still feel like a fat pig. They removed part of my stomach and I thought, I'm on my way. But now I find I still love to eat and my stomach has stretched a bit and I do what is called grazing. (just like a cow****ep saying I will stop but my mind won't cooperate with my mouth. That is how I got to be over 300 pounds in the first place. I bought smaller clothes last winter, now find I can't get my fat butt in those same close. I just needed to vent I suppose, or just talk to someone who may understand where I'm coming from. I want to stop, but I just don't feel like I can. I am on my way back up and never got down to what my dream weight was. Am I the only person going through this? Thanks for listening

Mary, go back to basics. Start back on the protein shakes. Avoid drinking any liquid an hour before and an hour after you eat. Leave the carbs for the last thing to eat. Count your protein. Stop grazing, it's going to kill you. Are you in a support group?

No I am not in any support groups. I have always loved food. But I also love the way I used to feel when my weight was going down. I know I have gain some pounds back just by the way I feel and the way my clothes fit me. I will keep trying, thank you for responding and for the pep talk. I need to count my calories also and keep a journal of what I consume in a day. I am not sure how to use this board, but I checked my emial and there you were smiling at me with a response Thanks again Jeannie