Feeling blue and alone!!

Feeling BLUE today.  DH had to go in to work unexpectedly and threw a monkey wrench into my weekend plans to visit Olivia and Baby Evalyn in the hospital in Pensacola and getting some Christmas shopping, cleaning and decorating done so I am in a funk!! To top it off he isn't getting paid for it!!!  I am really more than in a funk...I am teed off!!  I feel he is being taken advantage of, but he says this is important for the company and could determine whether he even has a job or not...the company needs him!

I'm all for helping your company, but he works part-time for part-time pay and has been putting more and more hours in to "help" the company, but not getting more compensation!  I know I am probably being petty...he does have a job and I know there are many people out there without a job.  But, my DH is a good man and tends to let people take advantage because he is so good and wants to help, but...it's so frustrating!!

Thanks for listening and letting me vent... I am just really disappointed that I can't get to the hospital to see Olivia and her baby.  Plus the Christmas stuff...it is less than two weeks away and my family is coming to our home for Christmas day!!!  Sorry...I almost got off on another tanget!!  I'll say bye bye before this gets any longer!!

Connie ... I am so sorry that you are down today.  I wish you were here, I would get you to come over and talk to me while I cook LOL.  I have been in the kitchen, with the exception of about 30 minutes today.  I have had to sit these old bones down LOL.  They are a aching a bit.  I am hugging you and I wi**** was in person.  Love ya!!!

Hi Carmen,

I wish I were there too.  I think the PITY PARTY is over...

Boy, I can really be dramatic can't I...I even changed my regular TEAL font to BLUE!!!  LOL I'm laughing at myself.  That long vent and reading it again...yes those were my true feelings and still are, but boy I was a DRAMA QUEEN!!!  

It's good to know I can come here and vent and be taken seriously by my friends.  Whatcha cookin'?  I need to get up off my butt and do some cookin' or something too. 

I'm going to go over to check FB out and to let Jackie and Olivia know personally that I can't come over today...I can't think too much about that or I get sad again.  TTYL!! Love you!!

((hugs))

I think his company is taking advantage of him and what they are doing is illegal.  That just isn't right. I understand the job situation, but that doesn't make it right. If the company needs him, they need to PAY him.

Please dont' think that I am being heartless, but I don't like people getting taken advantage of.  I have been laid off before so I understand what its like to be jobless. But what if after all the "help" he gives to the company, they still let him go? Please keep up with all the "helpful" hours he is doing.

I'm sorry you are feeling blue. Things will get better.

Thanks DeShanna,

I agree with you, but Richard is too kind hearted for his own good.  He works while I am at work so I have no idea of his 'real' hours.  He is in sales and has a route...but is on a salary.

It's up to him to keep up with his hours.  I've just completed a boundaries class and I have to step back and let him deal with this.  I can let him know that I am not happy that it interfered with our plans...which I did, but I can't fix what I see as a problem with his job!  Tough for me, a control freak!!! :-)

Thanks for the hugs and the support.  I do feel better.  The venting and a little understanding from friends is all I needed.  Safe to vent here.  Can't do it on facebook...to public and too many people who wouldn't understand or who know my DH and shouldn't see it could be there.   Appreciate you guys!

Vent all you want my friend.  You have a right.  Bill is a good man!  Too good to be taken advantage of.  I pray that they see this and compensate him SOON!!  Love ya and miss you.

Hi Randall,

Thank you for your kind comments.  From you lips to God's ears!! 

How are ya'll doing?  I know this is a hard weekend in the Culpepper household.  My thoughts and prayers are with you and Lucy and the Peterson family.

How is Wayne holding up.  I know it's his birthday and it must really be hard losing his life partner a few days before his birthday. 

Please give Lucy and Wayne my love.  I am praying for you all.  I wish Icould be up there with you to hug you all!  Love and miss ya'll too!!

We are holding up ok.  Lucy really is taking it hard.  Her siblings are as well.  Wayne, well, it hasn't hit him yet.  He has shed a few tears talking with the Pastor the other day, but he is still in shock mode.  No one was expecting this, at all.  We all thought she was going to come home this week and nothing would be different.  

We had Wayne a Birthday party last night and tried to make it happy for him.  He was very surprised but I know it just wasn't the same.  

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE just keep this family in your prayers!!   They need them at this time.

Randall,

The entire Peterson and Culpepper families are in my prayers!  We are never ready to lose a mother no matter how old she is or we are.  But the sudden unexpected deaths are the worse...as you and your precious children know only too well.

Lucy and Wayne are so blessed to have youo in their lives, especially during this most heart wrenching time in their lives.  It will probably hit Wayne at the service on Monday.  You may want to ask someone to shadow him.  I know when my oldest brother died I didn't reallly cry until the viewing and then I broke down completely.  There's something about that makes you face up to the finality of it all!    Again...I'm praying for peace and acceptance for all! Love you guys!

**edited to correct Randall's family name to Culpepper from Crawford...which is my DD's name...duh  Sorry Randall!!

My day did not work out like I planned.  I had planned to be somewhere at 11 Am.  I didn't get there until almost 2:30PM.  There was one delay after another and bad weather that kept me from arriving on time. 

When stuff happens and it doesn't appear to be my fautl or lack of planning, I accept that what is happening is exactly what needs to happen at that particular moment in time. 

You may have needed the rest and the alone time.  Olivia and Baby Evalyn may have needed alone time.  You never know, but what you can always be assured is that there is a plan to the entire universe and when things seems to be moving against you, it is because you are fighting the plan.   So remind yourself that right now, this where you need to be and there is a purpose to what it happening, even if it is not clear to you at this moment.  I know it is hard to do, but sometimes you are stuck in traffic to avoid a worse fate or you cannot do what you want, and you later find out that there was something better waiting for you.  It is ok to be disappointed, but what happen was for you good in the long run, you just cannot see it yet.  Wayne Dwyer says "you will see it when you believe it."  And he has written about that there are no conincidences in our lives, we are exactly where we need to be, when we need to be there....we just don't always understand the purpose of the stymied plans.  I think he is making a secular statement of God's Will.  But the latter is my interpretation, not his.