Vent, Advice, Confused???

So I am over 2 years out Lapband, I've had many problems getting the right amount of restriciton, I've gone from too tight, soft food sydrome, no restriction, filled, too tight, unfilled and now working my way back up.  I've lost 84 lbs and now gained back 31 lbs.  My doctor is working with me to help get me back on track.  I have a terrible food addiction problem and if I am not using food I resort to something else.  I am so screwed up.  I see my doctor yesterday and he wants we to continue to "work my band" but also consider going through the process of getting approved for RNY.  (I was self pay with my band and now my insurance does pay for wls) He has had another patient simular to my situation and she has lost 39 lbs with her band in a 2 year period and another 98 since her revision.  My problem is,  I really need this band to work, I know now the only reason it hasn't has been to my bad choices and lack of commitment.  I feel like I would have taken 14,000 from my family and thrown it down the trash and we really can't afford a mistake like that.  Also, I don't know if I want to take the risk, I choose lap band because I was afraid of the bypass.  And now everyone is talking about the whole "foriegn body thing" something I didn't even worry about before.   Now I am so confused.  I want my band to work, I really think if I can't get control over myself I will still have problems with the RNY.  UGH.  Why is this so hard for some of us???  I wish there was a magic pill that erased additive personalities. 

You know Kenna...you are right.  You will have problems with the RNY also if you cannot control the food.  I had RNY surgery September, 2005 and it was wonderful for about 18 months....(don't get me wrong...I think it is still wonderful) but for those months I did not have to do a lot.  After that, it got to where I could eat more and I realized that it would not take much for me to put back on all of my weight.  Whatever surgery we choose to have, we have to modify more than our tummies.  We also have to modify our way of thinking about food.  I am horrified to touch a candy bar.  I did go back to drinking soda, but have stopped that now because even though it was diet, it was hurting me.  I wish you well with whatever you choose to do.  Maybe you should talk with a nutritionist, also.   I just always remind myself of what I will lose if I gain my weight back.   Best wishes!!!

Carmen
Pure Protien makes a peanut butter chocolate bar that has 20 gram of protein and only 2 sugars.
It is WONDERFUL ...Wally mart has it but get it by the carton at Cosco or Sams .
To me is tastes just like a candy bar but SO FILLING ...
 I love these...

Oh Shirley...I know...I was buying these and some others by the case at Sam's.  They are fabulous.  However, I got to where I was eating two and sometimes three of these a day.  Now I buy them at WalMart and there are only 6 in a box or maybe 5 (I cannot remember.)  That way...I have to ration them throughout the week.  I know I am an addict...even with protein bars.  But you are right...these are soooooo good. 

thanks for the reply's .  I wish I could find a support group local - not b'ham,  I live in Dempolis so I could attend regularly.  I've been to the one at DCH but not so helpful, it is usually about pre-ops and if you have questions are problems they quickly move on and change the subject.  I think people need to know they have problems and then offer some positive answers.  WLS is not the fix all that is for sure.  I keep reminding myself this is just a tool.  Oh, thank God, my tool is working better since my fill on Wednesday.