I always do this before I have a function at my house, but I thought if I just vented I would feel better.  I am so looking forward to my party on Sunday, but I'm afraid nobody will come, nobody will buy anything, I won't have room for all the things I have to sell.  Besides the jewelry, I have a lot of clothing that I bought to wear when I got thin and then I never got thin.  There are a lot of really awesome Christmas tops, purses, etc.  But where to put them?  I have a big house, but the upstairs is purely storage, so basically everythings has to fit downstairs.  It WILL and I have my family reunions here, birthday parties here, Thanksgiving and Christmas dinners here and this party will be okay even if my house isn't clean enough, but every single time I have people over, I panic because I try to clean and my bones, joints and muscles freeze up and I can only work for a short time.  In the meantime, people keep calling me requesting my help for various things.  I have apparently become the world's solver of problems.  I can solve everyone's problems but my own.  However, this will work, it will be done and all will be well.  But what if nobody comes?  Even my sister said she may be babysitting the grandbaby! 

Is anyone here planning on coming?  Please?  I don't think I have anything WLS friendly to eat or drink, but I will try to come up with something.  I have spent a bloody fortune on this party already and I'm scared no one will show!

Ok, I've got that out of my system...I'm going to go try to clean some more now.  Thanks for listening.

Love you all...back to your regular programming...
Joni Just Joni 

I stop panicing. You will do fine. Your house will be fine. Lots of people will show up. You will sell a lot of stuff. Now take three deep breathes and say to heck with it. I'm going to enjoy this party. .......Feel better? I hope so. I wish I could come. My son and daughter are taking me out of town for my Christmas present. You my dear friend always expect the worse. But you deserve the best. Now don't worry so much. I'll keep you in my prayers. Love you. Miss Mary

Miss Mary you forgot to tell her to spread the Get Well cards every where

Joni you will do fine I just know it !!  Just Calm down and Relax

Miss Mary while your out get me a pic of you and Dolly I need it for my next Photo shoot !!

I'll get one of use together. I'll even label which is which, I sure don't want you to get us mixed up. I really don't look like Miss Dolly. I look exactly like Cindy Crawford. Yeap, it's true. We have the same identical beauty mark. The only difference is I'm 20 YEARS OLDER..........10 INCHES SHORTER.....................20 POUNDS HEAVIER................AND A HECK OF A LOT POORER.
Love, Miss Mary

Good Morning Joni,
Don't panic..everything will turn out perfect..just relax and enjoy your party!!

Joni,

If I had known earlier I would have made arrangements to be off work!! Our schedules are made a week ahead of time!! I would love to see you though!!

STOP right there Missy! I just emailed you so I have plenty of ways to relieve stress and deal with panic attacks too. I know how you feel since I have them too, so just take a few deep breaths, shut off the phone, lock the door and relax for one, go check your email.

You have a gorgeous house! We really need to finish getting everything organized upstairs so you can have your sewing room and library, guest room, but Id still sleep on the couch. its SO comfortable!!  I know you dont want to do another yard sale but we  now know, it shall be in the backyard!!! so lets just do it and be done with it once and for all so you can finish doing what you want to your dream house,  & when it comes time for the reunion, you will not have a thing to worry about this go round ya hear! LOL.  Just say when, I will go on and ask for some time off and stay longer this time so I can have sunday dinner with the folks, meet sweet keby and the rest of the family this time and give you a rest! Love Ya, off for now. S