All right ya'll....I need to write about this. You all know the issues I am having with my son. I have tried so hard to be a good mom. I realized yesterday just how miserably I have failed. I took K man and some friends to the Renn Faire yesterday, then to a haunted house last night. I thought we were having a good time. At some point during the Renn Faire a group of "goth" kids approached us and asked if we were local. So the kids answered and said no. Then one of them asked about K's blue hair. He answered with the type of dye he used on it. He told them, and then I spoke up ad said something about a different kind of blue dye that hairdressers use. Then I told the kids to find me when they were ready to go. Well, K stalked off, apparently mad at me. I had no idea what I had done..later I found out through his friend that he wanted to get some girls number, bu he didn't cause I was there. He got over it though. The rest of the day and evening I felt guilty for even going with them. I mean, he is 18 years old . I guess I am just afraid of leeting him go..and I wanted to grab every moment available with him. The next event he wants to go to I will cut the strings and let him fly. Oh, it is so very hard to watch my baby grow up.

Girllll....the last few weeks I have CRIED because I have LET Olivia GO!
I can't hold her down, and if I try, it will backfire on ME. 
She will only HATE ME FOR IT IN THE LONG RUN!!!!
She is 18 and will ALWAYS be MY BABY. 
Renee, just *THINK* about what YOU were doing at 18 and it will MAKE you set back and let them grow up. 
They need their wings to fly.
SORRY it hurts...but, you have company if it makes you feel any better!

It hurt when I let mine Go too! My DD is 32yrs old now and my son is 26. I am so proud of the people they have grown-up to be they are both loving parents and I shimmer when I look at them. They make a momma proud. They made their little mis-stakes and learned from them and so will yours In years to come you too will be proud

Renee...it is soooooo hard to let them grow up.  I don't think I have ever let mine completely go.  I don't think most mommas do.  However, I know how you feel.  I wish my babies were all at home so I could take care of them.  I know they do fine, but I just feel that they need their momma....I think what it really is is that their momma needs them .  You have not failed...you just love your child.

Renee-My kids are small but I know this day is coming. I think the following Kahlil Gibran writing helps me to put my role in my kids life into some perspective.  Love, Nanci


Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children
as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite,
and He bends you with His might
that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
so He loves also the bow that is stable.

sweetheart, this is SO going to be ME in another 9 years! mark my words, i will TOTALLY be *that* mom!