**sigh** ok, idk if you guys remember or not but earlier this year i had problems with laxatives (dulcolax, specifically) and in the fall of last year (and the summer and spring too i think) i had an addiction to chocolate ex-lax, although i didn't dare admit to that one. well now it seems that i'm addicted to pain pills, nausea suppositories, muscle relaxers, sleeping pills and pain/nausea shots for migraines. (<--some of the migraines are for real, some are not.)

for example: sunday i took (at least) 18 phrenalins which is butilbital + tylenol. and for no reason too except that i hurt ~ inside ~ a LOT! my job is potentially going down the toilet, my girlfriend just left me, i just moved and have a hernia from doing it all by myself, my finances are all gone to **** and idk what to do with myself anymore since i can't eat my feelings and since i don't KNOW anyone. seriously, i have NO friends irl. NONE! and yesterday i only (*ONLY!*) took 6 of these but today i've already taken 10 (and it's still early yet...)

i WANT to be okay, i WANT to be healthy ~ and i know what you're going to say "get thee to a therapist... PRONTO!!!" but i can't. my insurance doesn't cover any mental health stuff and i can't afford it on my own and i (currently) make too much money to get on a sliding fee scale.

so... what to do??? please help me. i can't die. i just can't. my daughter would go to my ex who DOESN'T EVEN KNOW HER CORRECT NAME!!!! and that would be the worst thing in the world

How I wish I knew what to tell you. I've never had this problem and the one thing I would recommend, you say you can't afford. Can you at least talk to your MD? What about your surgeon?? You have got to get help - even a minister if you can't go to your doctors. All I can offer right now is my concern and my prayers. I have never felt so helpless before. I'll be praying hard for you.

Love,
Debbie

Well I'm praying for Ya I have a brother hooked on the pain meds and it is not  a good place to be ! Just get on them knees and pray for God to deliver you from them. He's the best therapist you will ever find . I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers

OK,
Here is what you need to do. Seek help from your regular doctor. There may be a way he or she can help.
You have taken the first step..admitting that you have a problem. Next, find your local Narcotics Anonymous program. People in the program can help. Next..look in your inbox for a pm from me.

Thank you Iris. I was at loss and was hoping someone could help.

Love you,
DebbieDoo

Well I havne't been on the site for awhile, but something (I should say someone God) nudged me to get on today and see what was going on.  It is hard to know someone's intentions when you e-mail, but please know that what I am about to say, I say with the LOve of Christ.  I truly believe that God's word can heal and help anyone, but First and formost, if you don't know Jesus as your Savior, you need to take care of that first. E-mail me and let me introduced you to Him.   If you know Him as your Savior WONDERFUL!!!  Just from your e-mail I can see that you know that you are in trouble and that you need help. I only counsel using God's word, because He has given us wisdom in His word.  I live here in Tuscumbia and I would have no problem meeting with you and helping you. Remember you must make a choice to first help yourself by being honest with yourself and taking a good long look at why you are doing what you are doing.
May God Bless you. Remember, e-mail if you want my help. I will pray for you, but my prayer first is that you know Jesus as your Savior, because it is only then that He can truly help you. Jesus truly loves you and wants to help, but you first must ask him to be Lord of your Life. If you already know Christ as your Savior, them let me show  you from his word how he can help you.
Rie

I am finishing my MS in counseling.  You really don't have to do this alone.

Hey Rie!  AMEN!!  What a wonderful response!  God bless you my friend!

Did you ever know Derek and Stephanie Sowell?  They lived in Tuscumbia for many years.

So sorry you are going thru all this hunny. I wished I had the answers to help you. You are in my thoughts and prayers!!
Love ya,
Michele

 Please PM me. I have a MS in Counseling. I know you don't have the money for treatment, but there may be resources in your community that you don't know about.