Thank you all. I don't want to be a downer or a burden. I just can't seem to find that niche I am looking for.
Carmen, you are so right. We need to plan a family night here every so often. My Keaton told me as much. I know he was sharing in the hopes I would pick up on it. Love you all.

Renee,
I too snatch things things back but know that my heart isnt where I should be when i do that. I struggle with ALL KINDs of things too and pray constantly .
Family is where all peace comes after the LORD of course because without him there would be no family. THe old DEVIL is very powerful and loves it when we struggle but as we all know , GOD is way more powerful so turn to him and the rest will all come .
I believe this with all  my heart and I have been there done all that long ago .
Do family things though and talk to your children daily amd hug them daily and make sure they know how much you love them .  I would give anything if mine loved close enough to do that .
I have to do it long distance and it isnt the same ...:(
I will pray for you and your family though as none of us can get enough of that .
Shirley

Renee,  I love you!  You are so genuine and up front.  You said it yourself.  "I keep snatching it back".  God wants you to cast/give ALL your cares on Him, because HE CARES FOR YOU!.  He loves you, your boys, and your DH.  God can bring your home the peace, love, and happiness you long for, you're looking for, and will ever need.  Take back your home!  Take back what belongs to you!  What do I mean?  The devil is out to steal, kill, and to destroy.  If he can steal, kill, or destroy our families, then we are doomed.  We can't allow him to do this.  PLESE find a good bible based church and take your family.  God loves us and wants the best for us.  What is the best?  A home founded in love and in HIM, and our hearts made right with Him.  Not saying your heart isn't.  Just in general. I love you and I am praying for you.  I'm here for you if you EVER need me! 

I MEAN THAT!!