Question & update

I just have a quick second to post, I have Dr appointments today. 1st thing is a question...?? When I left ya'll, I was in size 12's. Now, even though they still have me eating ever 2 hrs & I drink cokes, (yeah I know it's bad, but it's the ONLY drink I don't wretch on! & my Dr's approve it) my weight is staying the same, but I am losing inches. I am now in size 4. Problem is, everthing fits wrong. I can wear some 6's, but have to continually pull them up. 4's are made for tiny women. I am a large boned, 5'09 woman. How do you find clothes that FIT??!! I have a ton of dresses, but I cannot live in them...well....I guess I CAN, but prefer not to!! 2nd, I have had another round of testing done & will hopefully have some results Thursday. He did not like the results of the test done here on base & has requested the films instead of the report. He said the markers are where they are not supposed to be & if it is correct "it opens a whole new can of worms". So, please keep me in your thoughts & prayers. I am scared, my face is broken out very badly, I look like I am 4 months pregnant, I'm exhausted.....BUT....I'm hangin! After this is taken care of & we find out if it is causing the neurological problems, we decide if I go the neurologist. Thank GOD for Tricare! I have had soooo many major, detailed & just plain RUDE tests I cannot imagine the cost. Thank ya'll for "listening". I keep it inside till I have a meltdown, which is not often, but lately I can feel it comin. I sure do wish my mama was still here with us, but....I have Mikey-Mike (just not here with me) & my Chesney, so I'll keep on keepin on. Bonnie

((((Bonnie))) I can't find clothes that fit the way I want them to either! But I am always looking in the mirror at a fat girl. I am praying for you and I am standing in faith that these tests that are coming back open up good cans of worms! You know not all worms are bad!!  I am praying they find the answers they seek and can make you well soon!! I am so glad you have Mike (he is always there with you - you are blessed!) and Chesney - he makes me wanna hug him!! lol I know they keep you smiling and soon you will feel well again. Please keep us posted on how you are doing.  I wish I didn't live so far away I'd hug you in person!!!

Thanks Julie. I know what you mean about the mirror. I see that I am smaller but I feel bigger now than before I had WLS.

Ya know....I never did like worms! Sure ain't gonna start now! lol I am blessed. Things aren't perfect, but I have a very loving & awesome hubby & a dog that is ALWAYS here with me & never loses patience with me, unless I quit rubbing his paw too soon. I have healthy kids & even though both seem to hate me right now, I know they are safe & I love them. I could use a hug, I thought my GI doc was gonna hug me yesterday when I broke down in his office. He looked lost! lol! I think he had answers, but would not give them to me, told me I neded to talk to the specialist. Gotta love it. Again, thank you!

I hear ya on the clothes/sizes issue (just not size 4s...wow, you tiny woman!).  When I was a size 28/30/32, I just put the clothes on...they all fit tight.  Every area fit - there was no baggin in the crotch, or shoulders falling off.    Now that I've lost the weight, nothing seems to fit right.  I suppose the only answer is alterations, but that can be expensive.  So I just wear a tank top underneath my blouses to handle the shoulder thing, and let the crotch ride low, LOL. I'll definitely continue to pray for you Bonnie...hang in there! lisa

Lisa, I have never worn a 4 in my life....cept for maybe in kindergarten! I was kinda thin in high school, but not in a size 4! I got freaked out when I realized the size I had tried on & then convinced myself they were mismarked!  lol! I wear the undershirts with a built in bra under everthing! The size 4's all seem to be low rise, so it makes it uncomfortable to wear a belt. Who's idea was it to make the smaller the pants the lower the waist & vise-versa? Thanks for the prayers Lisa

Love ya, Bonnie!!!!  I am praying and I know God is able and will take care of you. 

Thanks Carmen! Love you too!