the new life

 I had previous surgery....so it doesn't scare my at all.....the anestesy, the surgery, the pain, the days right after the surgery....I'm all good with those....The scariest for my is the new life ahead of my...ho don't take me wrong....I'm so exited with the idea of riding a bike again, riding a horse again....but I'm scared of the impact on me and on my relation with my dear husband.... it's for sure that I will change but I'm so scare of the impacts....and I don't know if I will be able to act like an healthy woman....since I'm 6 years old I'm fat....at 12 years old I was proud to wear cloths in size 18....nobody explained to me what does that means.....now I know And I can't wait to wear size 18.....but will I learn to act like a active mother, wife, woman.....I'm on my ass for so long now....having a daycare save me.....I'm force to get up and move with them......

I sound like a crazy woman this morning.....I'm so insecure....I realise that those courses they give before the surgery approuval are important....I have so many question....and I'm all alone here...the surgeon is not the one who took me most time with me....my family doctor doesnt really know about it....the nutritionnist either....

just tell me that everything will be ok....

My advice to you is take it one day at a time. You will have your ups and downs but as you become healthier. it makes; it all worth while. This is about you getting healthier and when your healthy the people around you will see your energy and your positiveness.

It might also help to speak with a professional to help with your insecurities. I had the RNY revision surgery and as part of it I had to see a psychologist as part of the process to make sure I was making the right decision. I have my moments but in the long run I know my health is the reason why I went through this and I can save so much money on smaller size clothes.. I have gone down 2 sizes. I find this forum to be helpful and gives some support. Good luck and always remember you are an incredible woman, wife and mother as you have made the best decision you can to become healthy!!

I'm happy that this fear is not holding me back from the surgery....I have no doubt that I'll have it....my decision is made....

I presume that it's normal to be scared of what I don't know....I see women and men over here with amazing stories....that keep me motivated that even if I'm scared of my new life I'll achieve my goals.....I'll learn to be thin....and knowing my husband he will be more than happy with my new silhouette. 

I think that I just need to let it out....

 

thanks for your response :)