Harder than I thought

 Well, what  can I say..... I am havin a hard time. I had my surgery (vsg) on Monday, nov. 28 in Red Deer and I never thought it could be so mentally challenging. All I think about is food, and wonder if I made a mistake :-( I feel that I am being selfish and ridiculous for feeling this way, but I can't believe how my mind craves food but I am not hungry.  I wake up wishing I had food, then go to bed craving food.  I have been in the weight loss program for almost a year now, did the best I could and was so extremely excited to start my new life.  
I am just curious if anyone else struggles with this?  I just need to know if this feeling passes, and how long it took for others to get over this.  
I guess I am feeling pretty sorry for myself right now, would love some support.

The head hunger is brutal.  Especially this christmas season.  Chocolate everywhere!
My surgey was 5 weeks ago.  I find that I am not really hungry.  Sure its hard when the family orders pizza and chicken wings and I can't have it.  I look at my greek yogurt and almost gag. 
Daily I do have to mentally remind myself of why I had this surgery.  I have heard that the first 6 months to a year after surgery is referred to as the 'honeymoon period'.  Its when you will lose the most weight the easiest.  So I try not to sabatoge myself.  But it is a battle.  No doubt.  I think most of us feel this way.  Honestly, I don't know if it ever gets easier.  Day by day...

Giselle

I had my surgery on Nov. 15th. The first couple of weeks ended up like- well- you know after you have a baby you sort of get "innate amnesia" and gradually forget how bad the labour was? Not true for all I know, but for many.....I'm finding the same with this. The first couple of weeks after surgery was horrible for me with discomfort trying to eat and drink. Then you factor in the "normal" eating of those around you and you GLARE at the jello and protein shake.  Now here we are Dec.4th and I've slowly come to realize something. It's to me, not that I can't have something, I can have a peice of shortbread but just a tiny amount. It's not as satisfying as dunking 4 big ones in a tumbler of milk, on the other hand, I just enjoy the taste and know that I am down 50lbs in the last year, almost 20 since surgery. I think I'll try to cope with the head hunger by telling myself "Yay! I can have a smidge and be glad to have the taste rather than deny myself totally. Priorities: liquids, protein, vitamins, meds, then "normal" stuff as Mr. Sleevie Wonder allows!!!!

 Thanks for the replies :-)
I am now on day 6 after surgery and I'm doing a lot better with the cravings.  I guess it will get better day by day.