I think I fell off the bangwagon

 So 9 months out of surgery I feel great overall. I'm down 100 lbs and am fitting into a size medium to a large depending on where I buy stuff. I can eat about a cup a meal, sometimes a bit more, sometimes less. Depends what I'm eating. Still can barely eat a hard boiled egg. I need an ass kicking! I fell back into old habits around Hallowe'en and I've been eating chocolate. I was never a big chocolate eater before, but I have been pushing my luck for about a week now. It started with the small fun sized bites, and I've been able to eat a full sized choclate bar once. No dumping. Damn! I did end up dumping last night though on 3 toffees. I know I can not continue on this road. I should have never allowed sugar back in. I am terrified of gaining back any weight. So far that hasn't happened but I know I need to get back to the basics. I think I need to get back into the shakes to keep my protein up so hunger can't wheedle it's way back in. I don't have a full return of hunger yet, but I get hungry sometimes. I still can't tell if it's head hunger or true hunger. Any one else been here and hitting a rough patch several months down the road? I'd appreciate any tips anyone has as well. Thanks

Hi Melissa,

I had my RNY on Aug 19/10 So I'm 15 months out. I've lost about 220 lbs now and I've started the maintenance stage.

I've been where you are now... I was addicted to chocolate but broke the habit. Then a couple of months ago I started back in.... just a little piece or bite of chocolate cake, or a single candy in the dish, etc. Then it got bigger and bigger. I figure that I was consuming as many calories in the small bites here and there as I was in the meals that I was eating. (I still only get about 1200 - 1400 calories in a day from my meals).

Then I saw a 'blip' on the scale. Up 2 lbs!! It made me go to my closet and pull out the jeans that I was saving as a reminder. Ladies size 34!! I put them on, they fell off. I put both legs into one leg of the jeans and pulled them up... OMG what a feeling!!

When I started my weight loss journey, I made a hard rule in my house. No munchies could 'live' in my kitchen. No cupboard space at all. The family could choose one day a week to buy munchies and consume them. They followed the rule without too much of a problem but then I relaxed it and started eating it again...

So to fix my problem, after trying on my old jeans again, I returned the rule of the kitchen and made myself a promise to never fall back into the same trap. I can have a bite of sweets when I want it.. but I need to use it as a special occasion treat.

It's working good so far... I don't crave what I don't truly want... I want to remain the weight that I am... I like me again... I don't want self - recriminations or self judgement ever again. I'm a confident person, ready to take control of her life again... I don't ever want to give that up again.

Sit down and really think about what you're doing. You've gone through a great struggle and sacrifice.... don't let it be for nothing!!

Have faith in yourself and let others help you.

Melody

Hang in there!  I too have had the lovely feeling of slipping down the slippery slope...oh wait, I'm still sliding but I'm working my way back up the hill.  When I had a weight regain (which came from those little wee snackies, and they were "healthy" snackies, no sugar) I had the black/white thinking come hit me hard.  Why bother, nothing I do works, I'll never succeed...you know the drill.  But I sat down and just like others here, I decided I could stop that pity party and get on with trying to follow the "rules" again, go back to basics (3 meals, 1 or 2 snacks), and I have to say I'm feeling better physically, lost a little weight, but mentally I'm feeling much better.  So my tip...don't be too harsh on yourself, tell yourself it's okay you just need to move on in your journey! and whatever you do, DO NOT punish yourself for this little misstep, that will only lead you back to the fridge in a bad way, trust me.  Give a little kindness to yourself, have a bubble bath (or whatever non-food related) and carry on.  Just remember, if it's not nutricious under your plan, then it's head hunger--feed yourself like you did before you hit the chocolate slide and you'll do great.