RANTING

lmfgrp
on 1/13/11 1:40 am - Canada
Alright, so please be patient with me.  I have to get some things out and right now I don't have anyone to vent to, that will get it.  So I am going to get it all out here!!

1) I don't need drugs just because I am *****y!! I was on antidepressents for 4 years after the birth of my daughter.  I hated the way they made me feel.  My husband hated me on them.  I went off and I am not half as weepy as I was.  So now when I am ***** or just have a bad day , I get comments of "have you talked to your doctor about your moods", YES I have, and maybe just maybe I am a *****y person once in a while.  BACK OFF!!!

2) YES everyone I am still working out, YES I am still eating healthier!! Thank you for asking and your concern but I do have other things going on in my life besides my F*@#$ WEIGHT!!

3) YES I do realize that when my children grow up I will miss this time, but right now in the moment my loud fighting, whining, cranky, cabin feever children are driving me crazy.  Fine if that makes me a bad mom, but I don't think I am the only one that goes through times like this.  And no I don't need drugs for my children either.

4) No I haven't decided if I want surgery or not, but I have the right to think about it and make a choice, if I want you opinion I will ask for it, and as I recall I haven't!!

5) Yes my dear family I know I am fat, and no I am not my sisters, Yes I know they are all healthy and active and perfect, but I however are no.  I am fat, stressed, and dealing with a marriage that is hanging on by a thread, and trying my damdest to save it.  Get off my back and maybe try talking about something other than what is wrong with my life.  I have 2 beautiful children and a husband that loves me and we are working on getting back to a healthy marriage, which will make me healthier, and my life healthier.   AGAIN, when I want your advice I will ask for it!!!

6) On an off topic,  WHEN the HECK am I going to find a job.  I have had 6 calls for interview in Edmonton (where we were going to move), now that we aren't moving, I have had none here at home.  I need a job, to feel useful, to feel productive, to feel good about myself, and right now my ego is taking a beating!! 

OK, thank you so much for your attention and listening, had to get that out before I snapped on some unsuspecting innocent bystandard.  Phew, that feels good.  This is in no way shape or form directed at anyone here. 

Any comments made in this rant are in no way reflextion of the website, or the websites patrons but of one tired, grumpy, fat, stressed, unemployed woman in Northern Alberta!

Have a great day, and please come back soon!


        
AzureAurora
on 1/13/11 4:42 am - Edmonton, Canada
VSG on 02/06/12
Well Said .... No you are no alone in any of those feelings
*hugs*

Highest 310 Start W 299 Surgery W 279 Current Weight 166.5 lbs      

        
cankiwi
on 1/13/11 11:03 pm
I have my own rant to add.  I am now back at work and yes am 30lbs lighter than I was when I left.  I don't mind the comments about the weight loss and love the ones that tell me how good I look.  But am totally getting sick of you must feel so much better now that you have lost weight.  In the last two shifts I have lost how many times I have heard this.  It is starting to bug me. 
    
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