Shopping = Depression

So after all this weight loss and purging my closet several times I decided to do some shopping today. Of course living in a  small town leaves little options so today I went to Wal-Mart, but anyway My shopping experience left me depressed. Nothing fit right and I'm in between sizes. I felt that ol' fat girl in the dressing room. I looked in the mirror at myself and today I cryed. I don't like what I see, I feel like all my upper body weight has sank to my lower belly making it look bigger than what I though it was, it's definitely a lot less firm.
Please tell me someone else has gone through this or am I just hideous. I look at picture and I'm like wow I can see the different but then today when I looked in the dressing room mirror and seen that reflection looking back at me I was so disappointed.  I think it's definitely gonna be a tummy tuck and a boob job for me, I'll be working 2 jobs for the rest of my life to pay it off but damn it'll be worth it.
I guess the only good think is that the old me would have come home cryed and ate until I was green but the Sleeved me didn't turn to food. I turned to all you here on the forum.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Kee.

hey sweetie..you're so fresh out...you be kind to yourself...yep we won't be perfect on our journey down, but you keep your chin up and there will come a time real soon when you won't be inbetween sizes...so be patient...but mostly be kind on this journey to yourself...we've been hard enough on ourselves thru the years... we are worthy and wonderful, and we at least have a chance for some alterations when you are all done...thinking of you....tammy

Kee
It is definitly not you it is the clothes at walmart.  I did the same thing thinking finally I can fit some of this.  There sizing is definitly off.  I can go to penningtons and buy a 2x of x and it fits great I go to walmart and nothing fits probably.  Next time you are here in Edmonton treat yourself to some clothes at some other clothing stores and you will feel better about the fit.
I have seen your pictures and you look amazing.  Don't get discouraged you have worked to hard to get here.
Take care and be kind to yourself you are worth it.

Kee:

I agree with everyone. It isn't you. It is Walmart. They have funny sizing. When you come to Edmonton next, try to bring some extra money for shopping. I don't like shopping at Wal-Mart or Giant Tiger or a store like those for clothes because as I'm not a 20 in pants for addition-elle and Penningtons and a x/1x for tops, at those stores sometimes even the 3x are too tight...and I just hate that feeling. I know that I am not a 3x. All those clothes went to other people. I'm learning to embrace my new size...cause honestly, who knows exactly how long I'll be in this size.

Dont worry..I know easier said than done. You are doing FANTASTIC and when you can come into the city, or Spruce grove, try to go to Ricki's or Reitmans....check them out and I know you will be amazed at what you actually can fit into. IGNORE stupid Wal-Mart.

Hi Keenan,

Please don't be discouraged!! I have very much the same problem... I'm blaming gravity..!! lol..

My face and neck and shoulders are as slim as a teenager, but the belly and the hips and thighs look like a sponge... They seem to look so disporportionate. I know it's gravity taking all the extra fat and skin on a short ride and it's a traffic jam...!! lol..

I'm in a small town as well... and I have to agree with everyone else about Wal Mart... Their clothing sizes are stupid... but a friend of mine is a local buyer for Wal Mart. She tells me that the sizes are smaller because most of the clothing is made in Indonesia or Tailand or China... They don't have many large people there so are very unaccustomed to making those sizes... it sure made sense to me!!

As for the crying over it... well all I can say is that we all need a good cry once in a while... It cleanses our emotions and lets us think clearly again... But ya know what?? after the cry... pick yourself up again and start FRESH. A new day will bring a new thought... a new thought will bring a new discovery!! I wish I could be with you to give you a big hug, so I'll send this one to you virtually!!!

We all need a cheering section once in a while... I'll be your's!!!!!

Melody

 

Thanks everyone for you kind words. It means a lot for others to understand where I'm coming from.
So yesterday I ventured into Wear House One, I've only ever been in there once with my nephew but I though ok 75 pounds lighter the heck with it somethings gotta fit and Wow what an awesome experience. The sale lady was super help full and I left with 2 pairs of awesome fitting jeans and 5 shirts in a large....talk about a hug smile on my face, like hello a large I had to look at the tag several time before I had the courage to try it on and now it's hung in my closet ready to wear. Oh and did I mention it was all on sale and I pay only 130 bucks for it all. Gotta like a deal.,

Thanks again, and now I'm glad I had some good new to share.

Kee.

HI Kee,
I wanted to chime in re the sizes, cause I'm at the same place as you.

if you have an Old Navy nearby try them. It would be worth a drive to one. They have awesome sizes that fit. I'm into a Large walking pant and a 16 jeans. (Vanity sizing). Walmart sucks, and most of their clothes are cheaply made as well.

I'm saggy on the bottom as well, but some day soon i'll hit goal and figure out what exactly my size might be.

Glad you found something. You deserve it after the hard work.

Janice