Hi All! How You Doin'?

So I decided I would update you all on my life right now...just because I want to.  And then I was hoping that others would do the same.

I don't think this past week has been a good week for me.  I gained back 3lbs.  Which isn't a ton but when I am losing 3-6 pounds a week, seeing the scale jump back up almost made me mad...okay it actually did.  BUT can I really blame the scale?  It is my own fault.  After surgery, I see more and more how the little compromises affect my moods, energy, and weight gain.

My grandpa passed away on Thursday last week so while running from Edmonton to Calgary to pick up my older brother and back, then to leave from Edmonton to Vancouver, back to Calgary from Vancouver and finally back home to Edmonton, I have not mastered the road trip munchies and food yet. While on the road it was a standard stop and grab situation.  I made wrong choices - had some food that was full of grease (fries), and while I didn't dump, I knew it was still the wrong choice.  And I think almost every meal I made a wrong choice in regards to food.  I don't know.  I think my biggest fear through everything is that I'm going to fail.  I'm going to gain the weight back.

I've started to work out but since this all happened with my Grandpa, I haven't been able to hit the gym or even go to aquasize (which I haven't decided if I like yet or not) and forget bellydancing - Something always seems to come up on Sundays that it is so hard to plan anything.

I don't know...I guess I'm just starting to feel a little discouraged with everything. 

So how are you all doing?

Awwwww....

Don't feel discouraged!! It's just a 'Blip' in the road of life.

You made some wrong choices....... so what.... learn from it and carry on.... I don't believe in failure... When you stop trying.... it's not a failure... it's giving up... and when you give up, you're no longer trying so it can't be a failure....

We all have little 'Blips'.... we just have to concentrate and not allow them to become Huge 'Blips'.

It's hard to stay focused on our new lifestyle sometimes. Don't give yourself a hard time about it... Give yourself a little talk and tell yourself that you're human and will make mistakes, but try really hard to not make the same mistakes more than once.

After the Pep Talk... give yourself a real treat.... Strawberries and frozen yogurt would work for me... decadent and low in calories and has protein too... yummm....

LOL.. I like it when I make myself a treat like that.... my kids drool and I DON'T SHARE!!! lol...

I make my own frozen yogurt so I can put what I want in it... Just plain yogurt and I mix two scoops of Beneprotein into it and a Little bit of Lemon juice (I like it tart) then pop it into the freezer for a couple of days and add fruit... YUM YUM YUM... My kids think it's ice cream and they always want some until I tell them that it's Yogurt... LOL LOL

About once ever 3-4 weeks I see an increase on the scale and for a while it worried me... just a couple of pounds but still it drove me nuts... until I realized that it's probably water gain because of the menstrual cycle... and sure enough once it was finished, I dropped over 8 pounds...

Wrong choices are ways of teaching us not to punish ourselves but to embrace what we've learned.

Give yourself a big hug and get back on track...

Melody

Hi Adrianna,
So sorry about your grandfather's passing. That is a really emotional experience, and it must have been kind of exhausting to go through it while trying to be at your best health wise.

My week has been okay, but I am having a a few small struggles.

Number one, I am just feeling quite paranoid a lot, where I think I am eating too much. I know logically that I am not (measuring etc. and following all guidelines) but I am just so unused to feeling full all the time, that it makes me feel a bit guilty. I know that previously, before the surgery I rarely felt full, and if I did it was because I had really eaten too much. So this kind of weird guilt is something I need to um get over quickly! somehow! 

Also, I am a young-ish single person, and lots of my friends are the same - few are married or have children. We all have good jobs and really spent a lot of time going out in the evenings for coffees, to events, for dinner, or inviting each other over for dinners we would cook for a group of friends.
I am having a tough time turning down all these invitations to go for martinis, dinners, and food-related activiites, and kind of shocked to realize how much of my social life was food related. I have gone out a few times, and the servers usually are very concerned that I am not eating anything. Or if I have ordered something, I am only eating like four bites.

Some of my friends are up for doing activities, but most of them have gym passes at other gyms, or are just being a bit stubborn when I suggest other activities like walking or for tea etc.
Oh well. I hope I don't lose a pile of friends!

Otherwise, I am feeling good physically, more energetic and positive. Less pain in my joints. So I am very happy with my decision, but realizing there is an impact in other areas of my life that I thought would be no biggie.
Thanks for the great post Adriana
~mtrai

Hugs Hun

 I wanted to say my thoughts to you and your family with the passing of your grandpa..
 
      Im  very sure that you didnt set up for all the extra stress. And We all know stress is a very big part of weight gain.When we dont have a normal routine that also plays a big part .
 
I know that your working hard and have lots to be proud of.. Focus on the positives.. As was said.. Accept what has taken place and  move on.. It's a little blip.. Honest.. Think of the big picture and how far you have come..

I went and weighted in on Wed when I took Savannah for her shots and Im down to 232. I haven't  been that in many many years.. I know that my weightloss has slowed down I was 236 a few wks ago.. Im content with the slowing down ....But hun.. your so doing amazing.. focus and get back on track..  Im always home if you need to stop by and visit.. Sometimes having an ear helps..



Karen

yep just a blimp in the road for sure...honey you are doing great.... concentrate on the positive and you will continue to do wonderful...so sorry about grampa... tammy

So Sorry Hun to hear about your Grandpa's passing. I think now that you are back home you will be able to get back to your own routine and that 3 pounds will just disappear. Keep you chin up girlie.

As for my life, it's a mess right now. I am still loving my sleeve and my weight loss is great. That part of my life is probably as normal as it should be for  6 weeks out and I still have no regrets.

My issue is that my dad was told in August he has stomach cancer and then last Tuesday we received a call telling us that it is a rapid growing form of cancer and it has moved to his lymph nodes and esophagus. The Surgeon stated that he doesn't expect my dad to make it to the 3 month mark.

My sister flew home already and I'm leaving next week. I didn't expect to go home so soon after surgery and because none of my family know about my surgery, well I'm nervous. Will they notice or just think I'm too stressed to eat. My dad is still able to be at home so I'm hoping that I can do most of the cooking so at least I can make the right choices. In Newfoundland when you visit they all expect you to eat, and eat and eat.  They feed you 10 times a day and normally get offended if you don't eat.

Anyway right now that's my life and whats consuming my every moment. I'm hoping once I get home the stress will be alleviated a little and that I'll know when God does take him at least I was able to be there now and spend this time with him. It'll give me happier memories to cherish. And to those of you wondering YES I'm a daddy's girl.

Kee.

K..

  Im so sorry to hear about your dad. and what he is going through. .. 

      It's hard to be so far away from family and with the changes that have taken place will be an extra stressor. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.. Im sure like you said that when you do get home things will fall into place..   Im hoping that when you do go home that people will understand what you have committed to and support you.. Im sure they will..  I will look forward to hearing about how you are doing. Im sure everyone will be thinking of you while you are out East...

maybe  take a journal with you and write write write.. I know its a great stress reliever

Hugs Hun

Karen

Thanks All....it seems that everyone is suggling with something.

Mtrai - I'm finding the same thing. I went to a friend's house on Friday night and well I did manage to have about 1/2 a piece of homemade pizza, I kept on being offered other things to eat and drink and it was hard to say no and not have to explain why to the other people there that I didn't know. Same thing with Sunday, I went out with some friends after church and had a bit of Chinese. Well that bit turned into a bit more and soon it was coming back up again. Some restruants I don't even want to go to because I know there is nothing on the menu that I really can eat - but then I get the "order a salad" well Salads are great but I don't want to have to order one EVERY time. That isn't fun at all. I'm much more interested in going to the gym with a friend, or a walk, or tea or SOMETHING that doesn't revolve around food.

But I'm also finding that as much as my mom tells people how much of a great job I'm doing, she doesn't want me to succeed because that would mean I am smaller than her and I wouldn't share in the fat comments we get from family and "concerned" friends. I am officially smaller than my mom in clothing size and weight and anything that has to do with me getting support (going to the support meetings) or such she tries to do everything in her power to wreck my plans for me.

I am just getting so frustrated!

Yeah, I hear you! That is too bad about your mom- it must be scary for her to know that you will be healthy and free from the struggles of weight, maybe she feels like she will be left alone to deal with it by herself.

I have two close friends who were in the program but were "phased back in the community" or however they describe it and things are a bit weird between us right now. We have always kind of shared the issue of being overweight.

I have had a bit of the third week stall here in my fourth week... which sucks. But things that are GOOD:  feeling less joint knee pain, lost two clothing sizes, feeling my shape coming back again.
AND... noticing people notice me ha ha.

I am mentally focusing on the fact that I need healthy people around me, and I may have to make some new friends in the process!
~mtrai