Blah's

Here it's goes......I got a bad case of the blahhhhh's.

I'm having a rough couple of days and I'm so close to seeing the surgeon and now because of financial reasons I may have to cancel my appointment next week.

I'm so stressed and sad.... my best friend has been a tub of Heavenly Hash ice cream which isn't good cause I have a severe case of being lactose intollerent. I guess old habits are hard to break and because of the stress issue I'm turning to food.

I know some will say get back on the band wagon but right now my wagon has flat tires cause I just ate 1/2 tub of ice cream. I totally feel like a piggy ..... now what I have done it. I don't even know why i would bring something like that in my house. Frig cause of the stupid I guess.

Frig why do we sabotage ourselves?

 Hugs to you Keelan.  Please dont beat yourself up. You deserve better than that.  I have learned for myself, when I get the blahhs and just want to pack it in and lose myself in a tub of ice cream, that I will do a long hard walk instead and then see where I am.  
Take care.  
Straw Walker

I hope things are better today.  Have you taken Craving Change yet?  It's a great course.

 

First of all live by the 80-20 rule.  Be good 80% of the time and allow for mistakes 20% of the time.  YOu had your 20% this week with your ice cream frenzy...that's allowed.  It's over.  Move on.

Secondly examine why you eat when you do.  Write down how you felt before, eat it, then write down how you felt 5 miniutes after and then how you felt 20 minutes after.  It will help you to discover why you eat when and what you do.  Then find other things in your life that give you that same feeling and use them in place of Heavenly Hash.

Also as you know bringing that type of trigger food into our homes is always risky.  No matter our mood it calls to us from wherever it is stored.  I made myself a rule that if I want to enjoy a treat of my choosing I will walk to get it and I will only consume a serving.  It has worked so far...especially with the snow!  No way am I walking to the store in this weather (I thought it was May!)

Anyway please don't beat yourself up.  That will only make the cycle worse.  You are better than that.  You can find a way to nurture yourself that is not food related and you can use it in place of food! 

 

Good luck and please let me know how you are doing!

Thanks you both for your kind words.

Today is still kind a blah day but I've controlled what I have eat and made healthy choices. Now just to keep it that way.

Kee.

Hang in there, I know what the blahs can do.  I am about 18months out with a band and am struggling a lot with food again, I seem to be slipping into my old eating habits but I know that the trick is to get back to the basics ...weigh , measure, small bites , chew well, better food choices etc.....sounds simple but actually doing it is a different story.
I try to remember that I didn't have this surgery and do all this work only to get it all back again. I have lost about 65lbs and feel so much better.
The band is a much slower loss than I expected but they tell me patience is a virtue!!!!  Good luck to you.
Eydie

HUGE HUGS TO YOU!!!!!

First stepstep--- no more beating yourself up. We all have little setbacks in life and we're totally allowed!
Next step-- put the ice cream in the sink and run the hot tap! :)
I really hope you don't have to cancel your appt. Is there anything I / we can do for you??

Thanks Kim for your reply. I very much appreciate all the support that I (we) get and give on here.
You have all done so much just by being on this forum and allowing each one of us to vent at one time or another. I am so greatful for finding it and finding all of you guys.
It's so wierd cause I think my nurse Jina sensed something was not right and she called me this morning out of the blue, no telephone appt was made but I'm greatful she called. We had a nice chat and she did a chart review and tomorrow morning I have to go for blood work. She faxed it out to the hospital today. I guess somewhere along the way they forgot to redo my blood work.
Thanks again everyone. I feel bless to have all of you in my life. 

I can so relate to the blahs!!  Seems like I am feeling that so much recently.  Back to the baby steps for me I think.  What is the "craving change program"  I am very interested...so if anyone can share I would appreciate.  Thanks so much

Craving change is module 8, it's a 3 part series. I personally haven't done it just because I live 2.5 hours away from Edmonton and it's a little hard to get all that time off work and drive to the city.
If there is anything i can say about the Blah's it's done give up. Today I was approved for gastric sleeve surgery and I though about how hard and long of a road i've travelled on to get to this point and it makes it all worth it.

Kee.