Something New - not being able to eat as much again
yes, that happens to me periodically ( and, in my case, is certainly a welcome thing). being 2 years plus post-op i can normally eat like a VERY BIG AND HUNGRY pre-op without any discomfort. periodically that results it some weight re-gain (not good, obviously).
but, like you over the last couple of weeks, i've been feeling full after eating a small amount of food (and I still LOVE FOOD). over the last couple of weeks here were a few time i actually skipped meals unintentionally because i had been stressed as i recently moved to a new city/running late/ anfd ACTUALLY FORGETTING ABOUT FOOD(skipping meald is not a good thing, i know, but the weird thing is that pre or post op, food has always been on my mind --i imagine that's how it must be like for a recovering drug/alcohol addicts--kind of an everyday struggle.
since i hit puberty (i grew up being skinny as a stick never thinking about my weight but, when i started developing boobs and hips, a few family menemebrs told me i should really be carefull and go on a diet--i guess that's how this whole wieght problem/eating disorder/yo-yo dieting nighmare stared--ironically, all that happened during puberty is that i may have gone from being 5'4 and around 100 lbs to being 5'4 and maybe around 120--not exactly a weight problem but my big brother made fun of me and my mom started teachig me about dieting). anyway i'm 33 now and for about 21 of those years i never ever stopped thinking about my weight, calories, dieting, eating uncontorllablly, tyring all kinds of eating disorders just to control my weight and,ultimately, totally losing control and ending up at around 225 lbs--i became an official Lane Bryant/plus size shpopper and, what's een worse, being oveweight compeletly took away my self-esteem and did not allow me to appreciate any of the good stuff i had going--like being lucky enough to get into really good schools (college law school, etc.), graduating near the top of my class, landing an awesome job, being repeatedly promoted, later starting my own law practice and doing great at running my own firm while still being in my 20s and very early 30s--all the stuff i used to have i was never able fully to appreciate or because, ultimately, none of that mattered as as long as i was 10, 20, 30 and and the end of the day, almost 100lbs overweight.
having RNY a little over 2 years ago worked like a charm--i lost all the excess weight and then some, re-gained some back (went from size 20-22 to a (healthy, not anorexic) size zero, rewarded myself with a very owerpriced pair of jeans --size 24 waist, the smallest size the store carried. over the next year, i re-gained some weight (10 lbs or so) but am still "normal" as far as BMI stuff goes. gaining weight as a pre-op, losing weight as a post of, struggling to avoid re-gain, no matter how fat or skiiny i was, food control was always one of the dominant factors in my life--i was always hungry, always trying to eat the right thing/not to eat too much, binging when i was stressed/bored/PMSing --food was something i always obsessed about. RNY helped immensely but didn't take away the whole onsession with weight/food/compulsion to overaeat mind set. And, yes, i even tried the whole threrapy thing--that didn't work either.
in the last couple of weeks, for some reason, and for the first time in my adult life, something wierd happenned for no conceivable reason at all--i no longer want to eat all the time. i'm o.k. with my weight now (except for the 14lbs i'd love to lose) but have been eating less/and actually getting full just because i was gebuinly full. i actually have been forgetting about food and only remembering to eat when i actually felt physically hungry---i thought it was very weird until i vaguely remembered being like that 20 some years ago--before food/weight became an issue.
i think that is what being normal (as far as as as a relationship with food) must feel like. i know it will probably not last but. for now, i'm enjoying every second of it. i LOVE not struggling with an urge to eat every seconf of the day/ i love not having to deal with or think about food.
yesterday, i was at an awesome italian restaurant and was genuinly starving because i was so busy all day i actually forgot to eat (forgetting to eat is, for me, is normally inconceivable). the food was superb, the wine was good, the company was great and i totally allowed myself to eat as much as i wanted. and then something weird happened--i enjoyed the food very much all of it -the appetizer, the entree, the desert --but ended up only having a little of each because i no longer wanted to eat after i stopped being physically hungry--yes, i know that's a normal thing and that's what normal people do and nothing to ramble on about but, for someone like me, it was incredible.
Like you, I can't explain how this change happened--but i'm going to enjoy evry single seconfdof it while it lasts.
love, Nat
but, like you over the last couple of weeks, i've been feeling full after eating a small amount of food (and I still LOVE FOOD). over the last couple of weeks here were a few time i actually skipped meals unintentionally because i had been stressed as i recently moved to a new city/running late/ anfd ACTUALLY FORGETTING ABOUT FOOD(skipping meald is not a good thing, i know, but the weird thing is that pre or post op, food has always been on my mind --i imagine that's how it must be like for a recovering drug/alcohol addicts--kind of an everyday struggle.
since i hit puberty (i grew up being skinny as a stick never thinking about my weight but, when i started developing boobs and hips, a few family menemebrs told me i should really be carefull and go on a diet--i guess that's how this whole wieght problem/eating disorder/yo-yo dieting nighmare stared--ironically, all that happened during puberty is that i may have gone from being 5'4 and around 100 lbs to being 5'4 and maybe around 120--not exactly a weight problem but my big brother made fun of me and my mom started teachig me about dieting). anyway i'm 33 now and for about 21 of those years i never ever stopped thinking about my weight, calories, dieting, eating uncontorllablly, tyring all kinds of eating disorders just to control my weight and,ultimately, totally losing control and ending up at around 225 lbs--i became an official Lane Bryant/plus size shpopper and, what's een worse, being oveweight compeletly took away my self-esteem and did not allow me to appreciate any of the good stuff i had going--like being lucky enough to get into really good schools (college law school, etc.), graduating near the top of my class, landing an awesome job, being repeatedly promoted, later starting my own law practice and doing great at running my own firm while still being in my 20s and very early 30s--all the stuff i used to have i was never able fully to appreciate or because, ultimately, none of that mattered as as long as i was 10, 20, 30 and and the end of the day, almost 100lbs overweight.
having RNY a little over 2 years ago worked like a charm--i lost all the excess weight and then some, re-gained some back (went from size 20-22 to a (healthy, not anorexic) size zero, rewarded myself with a very owerpriced pair of jeans --size 24 waist, the smallest size the store carried. over the next year, i re-gained some weight (10 lbs or so) but am still "normal" as far as BMI stuff goes. gaining weight as a pre-op, losing weight as a post of, struggling to avoid re-gain, no matter how fat or skiiny i was, food control was always one of the dominant factors in my life--i was always hungry, always trying to eat the right thing/not to eat too much, binging when i was stressed/bored/PMSing --food was something i always obsessed about. RNY helped immensely but didn't take away the whole onsession with weight/food/compulsion to overaeat mind set. And, yes, i even tried the whole threrapy thing--that didn't work either.
in the last couple of weeks, for some reason, and for the first time in my adult life, something wierd happenned for no conceivable reason at all--i no longer want to eat all the time. i'm o.k. with my weight now (except for the 14lbs i'd love to lose) but have been eating less/and actually getting full just because i was gebuinly full. i actually have been forgetting about food and only remembering to eat when i actually felt physically hungry---i thought it was very weird until i vaguely remembered being like that 20 some years ago--before food/weight became an issue.
i think that is what being normal (as far as as as a relationship with food) must feel like. i know it will probably not last but. for now, i'm enjoying every second of it. i LOVE not struggling with an urge to eat every seconf of the day/ i love not having to deal with or think about food.
yesterday, i was at an awesome italian restaurant and was genuinly starving because i was so busy all day i actually forgot to eat (forgetting to eat is, for me, is normally inconceivable). the food was superb, the wine was good, the company was great and i totally allowed myself to eat as much as i wanted. and then something weird happened--i enjoyed the food very much all of it -the appetizer, the entree, the desert --but ended up only having a little of each because i no longer wanted to eat after i stopped being physically hungry--yes, i know that's a normal thing and that's what normal people do and nothing to ramble on about but, for someone like me, it was incredible.
Like you, I can't explain how this change happened--but i'm going to enjoy evry single seconfdof it while it lasts.
love, Nat
WOW - you and I share a great deal in common when it comes to food and self esteem! Interesting how there is someone else out there experiencing the same thing right now. I love it - it's a good thing to have "back" after 2+ years, but I was concerned there might be an issue. Sounds like I should just enjoy it while it's here!!
Pre Surgery Weight 272
Goal 150
Current Weight 135
Goal 150
Current Weight 135
WOW--you actually read my long, rambling and incoherent message. Please excuse the billion typos in all of my posts-- i'm not quite as illiterate as i come accross, it's just that a bunch of my laptop's keys are missing courtesy of my doggie (i forgot to close it and the puppy decided to venture into writing a novel of the century of something) and typing is not one of my strong point to begin with.
The reason psoted such a long response is that your initial post really sruck a cord with me--as i mentioned, i'm kind of going through the same thing being 2plus years post op there is no conceivable reason for it. for me, it's a great thing and i'm not concerned at all.
keep in mind however, that i'm only 5'4 and i'm currently 129lbs, up 7-10lbs from a year ago (and over the last couple of months alone i fluctuated btw. 130 and 148) and, while currently at a healthy weight am no where near being underweight. my dr.'s goal was for me to get to/stay somewhere under 144lbs (the highest "normal" bmi for my height) but my personal "ideal" dream wieght is 115, which i'm not anywhere near.
i noticed that you are 135lbs, 15lbs below your dr. goal of 150. if you fon't mind me asking, how tall are you? 135 sounds like a great number but whether or not you should be concerned about eating less than usual might depend in part on whether there is a risk for you of getting underweight. as i mentioned, i'm 5'4 ,and being on the shorter side getting below 135 would not be a health concern but, rather, something to enjoy. but if you happen to be much taller (say 5'10 or someting), being 135 for you would be very thin to begin with and, of course, you may want to make sure to remember to get in enough calories in order not to fall below what is a healthy weight range for you.
The reason psoted such a long response is that your initial post really sruck a cord with me--as i mentioned, i'm kind of going through the same thing being 2plus years post op there is no conceivable reason for it. for me, it's a great thing and i'm not concerned at all.
keep in mind however, that i'm only 5'4 and i'm currently 129lbs, up 7-10lbs from a year ago (and over the last couple of months alone i fluctuated btw. 130 and 148) and, while currently at a healthy weight am no where near being underweight. my dr.'s goal was for me to get to/stay somewhere under 144lbs (the highest "normal" bmi for my height) but my personal "ideal" dream wieght is 115, which i'm not anywhere near.
i noticed that you are 135lbs, 15lbs below your dr. goal of 150. if you fon't mind me asking, how tall are you? 135 sounds like a great number but whether or not you should be concerned about eating less than usual might depend in part on whether there is a risk for you of getting underweight. as i mentioned, i'm 5'4 ,and being on the shorter side getting below 135 would not be a health concern but, rather, something to enjoy. but if you happen to be much taller (say 5'10 or someting), being 135 for you would be very thin to begin with and, of course, you may want to make sure to remember to get in enough calories in order not to fall below what is a healthy weight range for you.
Hi! How nice to see you again! As far as not being able to eat as much in the last few weeks...is this with every meal or sort of a mostly on- and sometimes off-again thing? If it is most of the time then I'd get back to measuring your intake to see just how much is going down and keep an eye on it in case it turns out to be a stricture. There is a lady in my support group who is 4 years out and she still keeps getting these recurring strictures.
For me, the days of getting full off small amounts are few and far between but very much appreciated. I think too many times I'm selecting foods that are sliders and go down too easily but if it is more dense and dry then the pouch fills up on less. So glad everything still 'works' when I make it.
For me, the days of getting full off small amounts are few and far between but very much appreciated. I think too many times I'm selecting foods that are sliders and go down too easily but if it is more dense and dry then the pouch fills up on less. So glad everything still 'works' when I make it.
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