Weekly Wednesday Weigh-In

Awright, sorry to start this post whining but my weight is up again this week.  And I know the problem....BREAD!  My sworn enemy has gotten into my hand, up to my face and past my lips.  UGH!!!  This disgusts me and I gave the last of it (homemade stuff, too) to the dog. 

I am trying to find a way to work bread back into my diet in sane methods, and not as grazing which it was this week.  Am going to try to bake some mini (MINI!) whole wheat pitas to freeze for my bento lunches.  Sometimes I just want a taste of whole wheat and am hoping that will be enough to do it.  If not, then I just have to go cold turkey on it again.  

Have to hurry, we have a guy coming over to give us an estimate on a new furnace.  ($$$!) And the house is a typical wreck so now that my lunch break is over I gotta get back to cleaning.

here's the ugly stats:

HW: 268
SW: 230
Lowest: 130
LW: 144
CW: 146   waaaaa!

Hope you did better than me.  Feel free to kick my butt!

Molly

I sure did not do any better than you...I am up about 8 lbs from my  lowest weight, currenly over 180 lbs and I hate it but it seems that I can not get a grip on my eatings......need to cut back on carbs, and suggars....so hard.

Being over 180 lbs. its considered "overweight" wow!!!! huge wake up call for me...

Have a great week!!!

Whoa, I hadn't even thought of that....I bet I had better check my BMI.  This gain has probably put me in the overweight category too since I am only 5'4".  

Still trying hard to get in the Bento Box habit and keep my diet varied, low carb and healthier. 

We'll all hang in there, those of us *****main here posting have to have some great dedication and fear of regain and that's a big plus in our favour!

Molly

sorry i've been MIA for a while but i have been a bit down over the last few weeks--nothing major, just generally depressed, which sometimes happens to me with or without a good reason. rolled my butt out of bed today and saw 140 on the scale--which is high for me considering i'm only 5'4 and weghed in at 133 just three weeks ago. my period is just about to start so, hopefully, at least some of it is water weight but also i have been eating like a preRNY elephant pregnant with octoplets (everything in the media is about octuplets nowadays so i couldn't resist). i overeat when i'm depressed and then get even more depressed when my pants feel tighter and so the vicious cycle starts.

seriously, as of this morning,  back to healthy eating and exercising. I have been so lucky to have had this amazing surgery and even though being obese sometimes seems like a bad dream that happened to someone else, i really need to keep a closer eye on my eating, etc. in order not to fall back into old patterns.

i'll be posting weekly weigh-in results to keep myself accountable.

on an unrelated and totally oversentimental note, while i don't post as regularly as i used to, you guys mean more to me than you know. your support and being a part of the community of truly inspiration individuals has been incredible help tp me in this journey.

love,
Nat

Aw, Natalie...Hugs!  I feel for you on the depression thing.  It has been a struggle for me too a lot lately and really I have nothing to complain about.  I've got a job, a place to live, and like you said got to have this amazing surgery.  It has to be chemical/hormonal in our brains.

LOL on the eating like an elephant octomom.  I will have to remember that in a few weeks when the cycle hits me again.  My MIL totally brought me down a few weeks ago: she told me that even now (many years post-menopause) she still has the cyclical urges to eat bad even without the actual periods.  Sheet!  And here I thought that the cravings and madness would go away eventually.    

And I love your sentimental note.  I feel the same way about you.  You have been such an inspiration in the way you get down to work and take care of temporary lapses.  Thank you for being there for the rest of us too!  

Molly 

Hi Molly!!!

thank you so much for your support. i completely agree with you that depression (at least the kind ) really is a chemical/hormonal thing. fortunately, i've dealt with it enough times to know that it eventually passes. unfortunately, which i'm not shy about getting help/meds when needed, there is no one magic cure it all.

in any case, i did stick with my yesterday's resolution to stop acting like a human fridge vacuum and to start walking at least 3 miles a day. (the fact that my period finally arrived ending PMS blues/munchies/severe bloating--i swear i was really pregnant with those octuplets for a while-- probably had more to do with it that the actual willpower:) so, as of this morning, i'm back down to 136. the goal is to get back to 120s sometime soon so i can wear the very overprised pair of jeans i got in size 24 waist about a year ago, when the economy was good and i was in low 120s and happy as a clam about it.:)

anyway, off to my boyfriend's (that's another weight loss challenge --he's a great chef and, i swear, is trying to fed me to death:) of course, being a guy who never had a weight problem, he thinks "low fat" is a four-letter word and "splenda" is a kind of rat poison. sadly, he has type 1 (juvinile) diabetes (not the kind you can cure with diet, exercise or RNY) so he could benefit from better foor choices too to keep his blood sugar in check. i don't want to nag him too much (after all, i know what it feels like when someone critisizes your food choices) but, hopefully, we'll both become more serious about all that grown up wellness stuff.

have a great weekend!!!! love, Nat

have a great weekend.

HI ALL

WELL I AM UP AGAIN THIS WEEK TOO AND I AM SOOOOOOO DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF!! AND AS I ALWAYS SAY THE MORE UPSET I GET, THE MORE I EAT
I AM STILL NOT IN THE GYM LIKE I SAID I WAS GOING TO GET BACK TO.  OH LORD WHY IS IT SO HARD TO BREAK THIS STUPID CYCLE THAT KEEPS US IN SUCH BAD SHAPE??  I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY WE CAN'T GET OUR DUMB BODIES TO DO WHAT WE KNOW WE NEED TO IN ORDER TO LIVE THIS HEALTHY LIFESTYLE.   YOU WOULD THINK JUST FEELING BETTER WOULD BE ENOUGH REASON BUT NO NOT FOR ME ANYWAY.  I WILL NEVER BEAT THIS THING!!!!

VERY FRUSTRATED
MINI ME

HW:340
SW:  330
LW:  183
CW:  184

Hey, it isn't our dumb bodies that have to be controlled it's our heads!  Haven't you for years felt that all of us obese folks just have some kind of wiring in our brains that makes us feel about food differently?  And then add to that whatever various environmental food conditioning/emotional responses we were raised with and it makes living smart and healthy so much more difficult. 

I don't know, a big part of my brain tells me that I need to not eat the carbs but a really strong part of my brain says...BRING 'EM ON, BIG GIRL! 

Now here, I have to insert one small butt kicking for you:

DON'T TELL YOURSELF YOU WILL NEVER BEAT THIS!!! 

Don't talk to my pal Melissa that way or I'll have to get rough with you.   You WILL beat it, but remember that like an alcoholic you are beating it one minute, one hour, one day at a time.  Get rid of that all-or-nothing thinking.  It just can't apply to us.   

Hugs!
Molly

Molly

Yes I know I do need a swift kick in the tail a lot of times cause this does get me down so much.

You are definitely right when you say it is like an alcoholic!!  Also as Melissa said in her post, she had to go cold turkey with the carbs I have GOT to do the same thing cause it is all or none with me also.  I just have to pray really hard for the will power again that I can do this.  I am just so scared
I know I whine a lot on here about all of this but it CONSTANTLY WEIGHS ON MY MIND!!!!!

I do appreciate EVERYONE for being there for me when I need you.  Hopefully I have helped you guys in some way too.

GOD BLESS YOU MY FRIEND
MINI ME