Wednesday January 28th weigh in

I really think I need to get on the scale today as I am up another pound. I watched Biggest Loser last night and Jillan's talk with the one boy (David or Daniel..not sure) really hit home. He said he can not imagine himself another way then FAT and I cried as I honestly can not imagine me anyother way..Is this why I keep eating, I am not sure!!!
Soo Today I got up and had a grapefruit for breakfast and am  having a chef salad for lunch.
Current weight 261
Next weeks goal is 258!!
MY next Goal by April 1st is 240, which sadly is my lowest.

I can so relate!  I watched TBL on Tuesday too and cried when I saw that part of the show.  I have always been the biggest person in my family (and we are all large!), the biggest friend in HS, the biggest one in my office, etc.

It is still weird for me.  I can't see myself any other way.  I know I am no longer the biggest person in the room now but I still feel like I am.  I still feel like the biggest person everywhere I go.  I see other over-weight women when shopping and wonder if I look similar body-shape-wise, becasue that is how I feel.  It is very mentally conflicting sometimes.

Every day is a NEW day!  Do your best today!  Don't worry about tomorrow until tomorrow gets here.  Do what you can Today!

Moving on...

HW: 392
SW: 357
LW:169
CW: 168

hey, I know exactly how you feel. I am usually just a lurker, I dont reply much but...I am just over two years out myself and I was down to 220 and now 240, It is very bad and all I want to do is eat.  I feel hungry all the time and I manage to eat plenty and all the wrong things. I wanted so bad to get under 200, and it is slipping away I was so close and couldnt do it and now an extra twenty pounds on top of it.  I eat entirely to too much and all the wrong thiings.....and I havent been exercising at all. I said I was going to start the year off fresh and get under two hundred and havent quite got started yet....I have lost that zest for craving the thin thing and I dont know how to get it back.......thanks for listening........Renee

Renee,
Thanks for replying to this..it is nice to know we are not alone..I keep saying today is the day and then I eat something. I have been "good" since Wednesday and have really been thinking more about what I am doing and why I did this. I look at myself in the mirror and think "Yes, I do look better then I did but I am still FAT!!!" People have surgery at what I weigh now (and less) which is down right depressing!! I have to keep telling myself that I did not go through ALL that I did for this...(I had a ton of complications in the beginning).
I hope you come out of lurking and as I think we could help each other.
I do not know what has happen to everyone but I do miss this room!!!
Hugs

I do miss this room too!!!!


I am also in a similar situation...eat and eat and eat ALL the wrong foods and need to stop that NOW. I made it to goal and promised to stay within 5 lbs of that and it already happened so I need to change my eatings and go back to basic. Won't allow myself to be overweight again....

True to form for my monthl visitor, my weight is up again and now between blaming a gain on too much salt and then stress and now this I think it is time for a get-real session for me.   Sick and tired of my weight being up, up, up!  We are past inventory time  now and I just can't keep letting work stress be my lame excuse for overeating. 

Going to try to get my sleep under control this weekend (got way out of whack due to odd hours at work this week) and get back to exercising on my treadmill. 

Here's the ugly numbers:

HW: 268
SW: 230
LW: 144
CW: 146

Now I'm above my surgeon's goal so the excess has to come off quickly.  I refuse to give up my 100% status. 

Molly

Hi Ladies!

I am sorry I haven't been on the board much lately.  I need to do better.  I will be out of town next week in KC again.  I have resubmitted to insurance for my plastics (fingers crossed).  I should knew in a few weeks their answer. My weight is pretty steady but I do have a lot of times I shouldn't eat this or that.. ugh.  why do we do it?

HW: 328
SW: 280
LW: 144
CW: 145

Id like to see 140 again.  My lowest was 131.6 for a day and held at 133 for a couple months.. but really after plastics I would like to be in the 130's somewhere.  So 140 is what he wanted me to maintain at so I am shooting for that.  I feel good there.

Have a good weekend everyone!  Do you think daily food logging is what we need again? thoughts?  Or does that seem to "juvinile" for where we are in our journies?