Accountability TUESDAY

Wow, add me in here at the end as another ditto. My weight is way way up (146 yesterday....can you hear me screaming???) and I know that a tiny part of it is post-TOM but mostly stress eating. Had migraine from hell over the weekend and when I was done throwing up I was stuffing my face with carbs to make pouchie feel better. Having no health care temporarily (I hope) really sucks....it would be been great to go to an ER and get treated for the migraine instead of self-medicating at home with ice packs and food. Got back to my food journalling, still not eating very well but it is a step in the right direction. We are right smack in the middle of getting all our windows replaced and the job isn't going too swell so that is stressful...I'm not gonna worry about exercising but trying hard to get in more liquids than food. So far today: 1 cup lactose-free milk, 1 shot decaf espresso, sf coffee syrup 2 servings egg beaters, 2 T salsa 1 sf bran muffin Planned for later: 1 slice meat-crust pizza, mixed salad 3-4 oz. chicken tenders w/spag sauce over and a sprinkle of mozz. prolli 1/2 cup nsa ice cream in a cone (I find I control my portion much easier if I eat it in a cone) Hope to be checking back in here a lot more regularly than I have been. Between the gardening chores, teenager angst, stripping the house for windows, work, birthdays/anniversary...it has left me so little energy for the internet. As soon as the windows are done we have to start painting all the new sills....ick! Not in the mood for painting. Hugs!

Hi Molly! I know you have been really busy and we have missed seeing you here so much! You are such a guiding force on this board and to have you gone.. wow (no pressure lol!) so I hope you can continue to find your way back here when you can. I know something for sure.. if we go into "hiding" mode from here.. I notice we are all falling off the wagon some. We need to try to be diligent to come here as often as we can to keep the momentum going and the determination high. I am realizing this now. I can hear you screaming.. b/c I am screaming right with you. I am about the same weight exactly Molly.. I am retaining TONS of water.. my rings are usually falling off me (my size 5!) and now its TIGHT TIGHT TIGHT... why? I don't drink my water.. and I have been loving me some carbohydrates.. put that combination together and yeah forget about it. Scale is up up up! But I also know that getting back to basics removes it from me rather quickly. My plan is to do Susan Maria's protein train for a few days. She suggests drinking liquid protein every 2-3 hours. Making this 5-8 shakes a day. Without milk.. I am learning not to do this or if I do only using 1 oz as a "creamer". This way its only a cup over the day instead of 5-8 cups of soy milk. She also says you can have a meal if you need to (one) but be sure it has no bread or carbs other than veggies and meat. So this way husband and I can still sit down to dinner if we choose to. If he isn't around and I am doing ok, I will stick with the shakes. I know in my head if I am drinking a shake every 2-3 hours there is now way possible I could be hungry. I am trying to ditch the caffiene also.. I realize this triggers anxiety big time and just not necessary.. of course this means cutting out my beloved shake (EAS). I have some left.. so I am just gonna do them sparingly I suppose.. b/c they need to be drank. But for right now while I am detoxing I am gonna try not to use those unless I am on the go or something and stick to the powders. I am loving drinking my protein in a cup of warm deaff with 1 oz of soy milk and davinci syrups.. divine tasting and so warming on the stomach. I am gonna do a lot of warm liquids the next few days and really push tha****er! I am glad you want to get back on track also.. yes, we have to to do what works for us.. for both of us I KNOW this is journaling our intake. Being accountable. I am so sick of not being.. I just need to find my system and stick with it. I see far too many postops at 18 months out doing the wrong things.. they come back to the graduate board 6 months to 1 year later and have a 40 lb weight gain.. NO WAY.. not if i can help it. Realistically, my lowest weight was 131.. but really 133.. I gotta reel it back in before it gets out of hand. I know you feel the same way too.. we can do this Molls.. hugs. I love that this board is always finding their way back here when they need. I hope that we can all just remain active on here b/c lets face it.. being away does none of us any good. That's my two cents anyways! Ok I am off the gym.. I am making today a turnaround day for myself! I need to. Hope to see you back here tonight! I will do another beck discussion tonight.. i have been behind .. again. Hugs! Love ya girlie!

The idea about keeping the MB alive as a safety net against weight regain is on target. It is a small, intimate, and non-hostile forum where we have a "history" together. All of us realize that "it could be me that regains all of the weight" so we are even more supportive of the "whole" team effort. Regaining should not be an option, especially since we risked our lives to have WLS. This is our best attempt to become thin and healthy finally! Yesterday was an "over 2000 calorie" day for me, as I had testing done mid-day. I ate a lot before and a lot after, but was able to start clean again today. I should have some results soon and will share them with you. (((Hugs))) Best to All... Ro calories: 1258 carbs: 162 fats: 31 sat fat: 9 protein: 78

You did great today Ro! I agree with everything you said.. it just isn't an option.. I had major surgery and no way can we let this happen! Please let me know .. us know.. how your tests results come out if you don't mind sharing. You have been in my thoughts and prayers! hugs

OK...I am PRETTY Happy with my day Breakfast-slimfast capp. delight shake Snack-strawberrys Lunch- Turkey salami on light wheat WW Boston Creme Pie Yogurt Dinner-salad with LF dressing and orange Roughy fish Snack-Blue Bunny NSA fudge bar WHY-3 chef Boyardii raviolli's (they were sitting there and I ate 3 of them and yes I TRIED to figure it out calorie wise) Totals 973 calories 25 Fats 133 Carbs 62 Protein 19 Fiber Still need to DRINK more water and take my vitamons. I did not get to the GYM as we had storms all day and I could not leave my 10 year old home alone during them. Tornado watches and severe TS warnings..(I might lose my Mom of the Year crown if I did) I am DONE eating for the day..will only drink WATER!!! I know my Protein needs to be higher but under 1000 calories is HUGE for me!!! Carbs were higher on the strawberrys and Shake then I thought they would be but I am OK with that

What a Good Mom! Thanks for Jump-Starting us; getting us prepped for the inevitable Acct. Tues in advance... and the (horride... lol) Wed. Weigh-in! So I have to know... how did you cook the Roughy? I love fish, but since WLS it does not want to stay "inside" very long. I've tried other fish...Tilapia has worked-out fine, but Cod and Salmon have had mixed results (not very positive ones basically). Only tuna fish with light mayo and tartar sauce or imitation crab (Pollock) done the same way have been my best bets so far. Roughy is a thinner, less dense fish... Right? So I might be able to handle it, which would make me very happy!!! I want to make Dawn's cornmeal Grouper, but will try it with Tilapia first (just in case). Molly told me that adding a little Ranch dressing is helpful, when meat / fish get stuck. Different Subject... I measure just about everything, as the "bag info" just isn't always correct. The serving size on one food noted 7 (chips / pretzels... whatever it was...wanted 1/4 standard serving), but 5 was the actual amount. It does add up and helps the company's stats "look" healthier. Finally... about Hot Cocoa... I'm sure that there are recipes out there for LS hot cocoa, but I just haven't looked very hard. Well, I was ticked at the $$$$$ prices of the ready made brands. Store brands use non-fat powdered milk... also expensive due to the bulk quantity that it's sold in. I had 2% milk at home so that's what I used; non-fat or soy could probably be used with some "tweaking". I've tried a basic recipe that tastes pretty good, using unsweetened powdered cocoa. I always use my digital food scale to get the amount / calories right. (Their standard measuring 1T is actually 10g... doubling the calories!) Anyway, my leveled "home" teaspoon measures 5g of cocoa at 1.5 teaspoons... if that helps. Putting 4 oz water and 2 oz 2% milk in the micro, then adding 2 packets of sweetener, a bit of salt (tastes better that way), and the cocoa, I got a fairly good result. I don't know if anyone else has tried to make their own LS Hot Cocoa... I'd be glad to know if there is another way to make it. BTW, 1 container of the unsweetened cocoa should yield about 90 servings, if that info is "correct", of course.... Here are the values: Nutrition Facts Homemade LS Hot Cocoa (5g cocoa...must weigh, 2 =, 2 oz 2%, sal****er) Serving Size: 1 6 oz serving Calories 53.0 Total Fat 2.0 g Saturated Fat 1.0 g Polyunsaturated Fat 0.0 g Monounsaturated Fat 0.0 g Trans Fat 0.0 g Cholesterol 5.0 mg Sodium 31.0 mg Potassium 0.0 mg Total Carbohydrate 6.0 g Dietary Fiber 1.0 g Sugars 3.0 g Protein 3.0 g

All right here goes. I did o****il a visit to Chuckie Cheese wit my kids: achiev one coffee w/cream 1/2 ww pita 3oz chicken 1 oz colby cheese 3oz chicken 1/2 ww pita 1 apple 2 pcs pizza small salad handful of cotton candy 2 glasses red wine 1340 calories 122 carbs 31 fat 86 protein

Well I had a MUCH better day today also Diana! Good job my friend.. we are rockin' our tools! food: I am doing the LPT of Susan Maria's from bariactriceating.com. They also have a message board there if you ever have time, you should check it out. Good people there. LPT stands for liquid protein train, but you can have one regular meal a day as long as its low carb. -Decaff coffee, protein powder, 1 oz hood milk, FF whip (mmm my mug of bliss lol) -Shake with water, 1 oz hood milk -Shake with water -Shake with water -5 oz filet mingnon grilled with small side salad with romaine, tomato, red fat feta, tomato, cukes and onion with FF italian. 3 pieces of sugarless gum LOTS of water.. finished at least 6 bottles aside my shake water cals: 969, fat 34 (thank you steak! lol), carbs 33, fiber 2, protein 132. We actually are not supposed to be tracking cals, protein etc.. just drink a shake whenever hungry and get in between 5-8 a day. Well i did 4 and a meal and if I am up real late and get munchie, you guess it.. another shake. I am gonna try to go without and just drink water. I have had plenty of protein but of course my cals are low.. I did A LOT of exercise today and the last thing I want is to go into that dumb starvation mode.. i do tend to do that under 1200 cals after about 2-3 days of it. Exercise: 2 miles ran on the treadmill doing intervals (hills, increasing/decreasing speed), 2 miles ran on the track. 1 hour of circuit training doing both upper and lower body systems and free weights also. Then I went shopping and walked around for 2 hours. Vitamins: Good, need to take my iron here soon. Water: more than plenty! Thanks Diana for keeping us accountable! Now time to do another beck discussion.. I read it but now I can't remember.. i need to refresh myself.. see ya tomorrow night! Great job!!!!!! Be proud.. the first day or two is the hardest.. its easy after that.. at least for me. *hugs*