*Accountability Thursday* (nope I didn't fall off the planet)

...but I wanted to. Had some hard days this week and took a breather... just not good days for me in the food department with all the emotions all over... doing better now. Hope everyone is well. I missed Wednesday weigh in.. I didn't want to post it. 145.6, there I did it. I have made an appointment with an intake assessment for an outpatient intense program 2 hours from my house near the twin cities in Minnesota. My insurance covers nada. I have great insurance for the providers in my network but none are experts in the field of eating disorders.. that is what I need so I am not gonna waste time just b/c insurance covers them. We are gonna fork over the cash and hope to get a reduced rate for being cash paying. The first place we contacted I am still on the waiting list and have not heard back. Another place I called isn't taking anyone new but is running my insurance and will call me next week and they hope to have an opening "soon". I am trying. Thanks for always listening and understanding.. I need to work on not disappearing when the going gets rough. I have kept in contact with a member on this board via email, she knows who she is, and this has helped me greatly.. thank you for reaching out to me with your hand and heart. *hugs* Also I believe if I am not mistaken today is MOLLY's BIRTHDAY! SO everyone wish her a very HAPPY HAPPY Birthday! Hope your day was good today and the sun was shining there Molly! Ok so here is my Thursday.. B: Protein shake with soy milk and FF whip L: Salmon salad with veggies and light sesame ginger dressing S: Protein Shake with soy, 1 oz mixed nuts later S: Post workout Atkins shake mocha latte (not bad! Ready to drink) D: Spicy Black bean Burger salad no cheese, tomatoes, onion - salsa for dressing and 1 tbls of sour cream S: 1 cup SF Jello Cals: 1198, Fat 48, Carbs 61, Fiber 22, Protein 136 Exercise: I ran 3 miles in the drizzling rain in my neighborhood after I got my hair sassified at the salon today (looks cute!) I need to get a new pic up.. I hope to in the next week or so for 18 months! Vitamins: Just iron and vitamin C left to take Water: Over 100 oz already. I am getting ready to post on the Beck book.. no I haven't forgotten and sorry for the delay, hopefully it allowed some of you to catch back up. *hugs*

Hi Melissa I have not had a very good week (story of my life). I bought cupcakes (BIG mistake) and I think my youngest ate 1. I gave my neighbors 6 and I ended up eating 2 of them this week. I pitched the others in the trash this morning as I can hear them CALLING me. I have not been excersing and I know I do so much better when I do. I have a friend in this week so Monday AM my butt will be at the GYM. I did get a really cute workout outfit this week so I was thinking about it..lol Have a great day and a even better weekend..I hope next Wednesday there is less of us posting Hugs Diana

I understand Diana, I really do. Once you get back into the gym you will feel better both physically and mentally and then that allows your eats to fall into place better too, at least it does for me! I will challenge you to go to the gym starting monday and I also will make a challenge for me to go at least twice a week to my own gym (its out of town) and we can make it happen ok? I know we can. Don't stop coming here to post.. we are gonna buckle this thing down together... I promise. The days I don't go to the gym (aside mondays as I am recooping from work) I will run and do weights/floor exercises at home. I am going to go back to DAILY exercise tues-friday at least and I work the floor on sat and sunday nights. So 4 days a week for me.. i can do it. You can do it too!!! Your outfit sounds cute Just the thing to keep you motivated! Love it! You also have a great weekend! *hugs*

1)Log Intake 2)64oz water 3) exercise 4)vitamins How about 3 out of 4? I know i have to commit to the exercise AGAIN....not there yet. My eats were good. B: Cinnamon Raisin Protein Bar L: 2oz Turkey, 4oz reduced fat cheese D: Fish, with a sliced tomato (we have a garden FULL of tomatoes so i will probably be eating a lot....we cannot even give them away fast enough) S: 2 laughing cows & a tomato 1010 calories 37 fat 42 carbs 105 protein

I am getting back into exercise now pretty well Dawn but it takes time and every time I do it I think why???? Why? B/c I love it and helps my stress... Actually when I am exercising everything else seems to fall into place. For my mental health I need to do it daily. Even my husband said so. I am going to commit to two days a week at the gym.. most likely tuesdays and thursdays. I work wednesdays and fridays are busy for me getting ready for work again so those will be exercise at home days. Sat and sun I work the floor and push my fanny for 12 hours there walking around. Mondays I am jello from working the night before so my night off. I am committing to it.. whats your plan? Make one with me.. lets make each other accountable. This is for life girl.. we gotta make it happen. As for your eats, love the numbers.. it would be low for me as you know as 1200 is hard enough but if it works for you then wonderful and keep up the great work!!! Love it! *hugs*

Hi, Everyone! I'm running late today, but wanted to mention 2 things... first, I ate Chinese food for lunch and eventhough they say that there is no MSG... I feel really dehydrated (increased sodium) and have a MSG-like headache! Second... I still have not been walking and lifting weights, which I was told that I HAD to do to maintain bone density and muscle tone. I did walk about 4400 steps (pedometer reading), but I think that the # is supposed to be about 10,000... Have you heard this? Oh, #3... I am still "standing" when I eat!!! Diana, I added in a couple of bagels the other week and just lost it!!! Knew that I had to stop buying them... so I hear you too! My foods were basically the same as the other day, except for the Chinese and a large mixed salad. Here are my values... calories: 1397 carbs: 170 fats: 48 sat. fat: 11 protein: 83

Where is Molly?????? Happy Birthday, Birthday Girl!!! XOXOXO Ro