H*LL with what you're Eating... What's EATING you? Any Complaints!

I'm eating everything that doesn't scream when I bit into it or that does not crack my teeth. That said... LIFE is harder now then I thought it would be. I thought that losing the weight would be the hard part. Maintaining and plastics (or living with the sags until the $$$ is available) is just part of it. People in general are much more open to talking with my Non-MO body... Although they have made a few "awfully thin" comments... "your face is too thin"... and "are you still trying to lose more weight" comments! I was thinking of wearing a tee shirt with with a pic of my highest weight so I could say, "You're probably right, I did look much better before... NOT!" Oh, Lord... People are finally talking to me and all they have to say is negative things... I change the topic to positives and then leave on a happy note. They get the point! Making friends was never a strong point for me. I was the chubby, ackward kid. As an adult, I relied on friends from work. I am trying to reconnect with others in my community and even the local neighbors. Having friendship skills takes a bit of practice once the school years of our kids have ended... meeting other parents to watch the baseball / basketball game that our kids are playing-in ended many years ago for me. I relied on acquaintances; a mistake. Now my focus is on cultivating a few intimate girlfriends that I can call and go out with occasionally. My learning curve is a bit off, but it is one of my mini goals! Thanks for "listening"... Ro

Yes, life is harder now. I think this is where the real test begins....loosing the weight was pretty easy (at least for me) and I sure hope mantaining is as easy. Friends???? what is that? I think I can count them with on hand and still have fingers left. I wish I knew why I have so little friends....could it be because of my weight issues or just life itself....hummmm it makes me wonder. I can use my other hand to count my "online" friends and would need room for more fingers b/c you guys are my real friends..

Here's a book link that basically talks about "Thieves of Friendship" The Friendship Crisis : Finding, Making, and Keeping Friends When You're Not a Kid Anymore ... printed in 2005... You might want to see if it's in your library; I did. http://www.pricecow.com/review/book1579547451.html BTW, One of my friends had a great insight: I can use my other hand to count my "online" friends and would need room for more fingers b/c you guys are my real friends.. Ro

LEARNING PATIENCE after RnY is my mantra today. I received my Lab results, which showed improvement. Only on Potassium pill/day! Vitamin A is at 4 capsules/day; 1 more added until next lab. Proteins are increased to 75g - 80g/daily. My calories are to increase in response to my weight loss. SO why PATIENCE? I need to trust that "everything" will be alright. I have been looking forward to PS and maintaining at my "best" weight. Web searches on Vit A just made me plain old nervous. The recent drop in my weight and the comments that I've received from others have rattled my cage. So Patience... I'm looking for you! Ro

Wow, Ro...you just said things I have thought for years. Love the t-shirt idea, btw! But I do carry a photo to whip out when people start to make comments and remind them how I looked before and how that woman had so many more health problems. It *is* hard making real-life friends. I always and STILL feel like the ugly, akward, social dunce compared to the rest of the world. Over the years I have sort of justified it by telling myself I'm really a quiet-loving person and it is fine this way. Thank heavens for you and everybody here, I love being part of this circle of friends. Molly

My ID still is the pre-op one. I need to change that! U.A.S.D... It's just a bad "video" from childhood, which cannot be erased.. until it's recorded over it with a more sympathic / understanding version of what happened back then. We all "own" our pains and reasons forever. I'm trying to find "enough love" in myself to make the years ahead that better version. Join me. (((BigHug)))

I'm trying, I'm trying. Must be stuff that goes along with the body dismorphia too. We'll work through these issues, right? Hugs!

Yep! It's the darned body dismorphia again. I didn't keep any of the fat clothes; not even for comparison. I put the jacket that I was going to keep on the pile as if it was a rose on a grave... and made peace with the death of the old body. Weird, but that's what I thought at the time. Goodbye...forever. Since I dropped too low, I've finally had the evil urge to weigh and reweigh myself. So sad... just keep doing it. I may have to lock the scale away! I did manage to put on 2 LB. Hopefully, it will stay on without my having to binge eat, which is what I've been doing for 2 weeks. I don't want to start "bad eating habits", after so many months of being on track. Ro