My Question of the Week

Do you still have pre-op behaviors? Yes... such as finding a pair of shorts / jeans... and then buying a few pairs in different colors... because I finally found something that would "fit". Hey, by now just about everything fits. The buying of "multiples" just limits the variety that I can buy with the amount of clothes money. I'm making an effort to pick the "one" color that I like the best and move on... and not over purchase also. Yes... negative messages... I dropped an item the other day and scratched it badly. My immediate response was..."I can never keep / have anything nice." I pouted for a while and then realized that it is just a "thing" and I am "human"; give it a break. Yes... holding on to "fat clothes"... I finally to the big run to Salvation Army to drop off the mid-range clothing, but also many 3x and ancient-relics from my past "thin" days from years ago. That's all I can think of now, but you get the idea! Change is good! (((Hugs))) Ro

Yes, change is good. I would say that the negative post op behavior which I still have is to always say" Oh, I will do .......(insert anything here).....after I loose the weight....wait a minute, I already lost all the weight I wanted to, so, what am I wating for? Also, I still see myself as fat eventhough the size of my clothes and my scale tell me otherwise. "that's all folks" Bea

DH asked me, "How do you see MO people now that you're thin?" Answer: I see that they are trapped. Part by the weight; part by not knowing how to stop their eating habits. I see myself as a person who had the fat suit lifted off of me, but the weight of it is still fresh in my memory. I will also see myself as "MO", just as an alcoholic will always realize that that "fate" is in the daily choices made... even when outward appearances show "wellness". Bea, I am looking forward to working on the Beck Solution... Maybe someday I will just remember being MO. Life is good... We just need to get good at living IT. Ro

Well I got rid of all my fat clothes, did not want them around. I am going to have to go through another round, because I'm sure things will change again once I am post TT and new boobs. I have about 8 pairs of jeans and only 3 fit me now and 1 pair of work pants that fit me. I will tell you that I went to see Bon Jovi 2 weeks ago, and when I go to the stadium chair my 1st reaction was " How am I going to fit in that seat" then I quickly realized, I was wearing a size 4 jeans and would fit just fine. I still think like that. I did see this lady a few seats down that was probably a size 26 and wondered how uncomfortable she was, know she had to squeeze in that seat. When I see someone that is MO is feel sorry for them and know I will never, never be like that again. I know I have a tool for life and will use it to succeed. However, when I look in the mirror I still see fat, not like I want to be a stick person but I don't think I am small, even though people tell me I am. I think having the fat and skin removed from my middle is going to make the world of difference for me. I have never had a flat stomach, not even in high school when I was 140 lbs. Just some thoughts, sorry to ramble on... Erin

Actually, you've got a great attitude about your "re-sized" body concept. I hope that when I am ready for PS, I feel the same way! You must have loved Bon Jovi... Aaaahhhhh! Ro

Yes on the clothes hoarding...I have to get every available shade in something that fits because who knows when I'll find something to fit again. Uh, hello....? Didn't hang onto the big wardrobe sizes except for one or two 'reminder' garments. But here I am a size four-six and have boxes of size 8-12 clothes. Why??? I *still* want to hide food even though I don't let myself. Ditto eating...I'd still rather not have anybody see the fat girl eat and make a disgusting pig of herself. Will that feeling ever go away? Enough negative thinking, I have to recognize it and do away with it. Also have to get my son ready for his dental appt. Hugs! Molly

Molly... Healthy is having all of your feelings, Love! Even the negative ones!!! Can't get past it if you don't recognize it...just as YOU said! The best answer that I have for the box of 8-12s still being around IS that Ms. Molly is one of the busiest ladies around. You'll find the time; just put the box in the trunk! I agree with the feeling that you have about eating in "public". There's a moment when the food arrives that I sometimes feel like all eyes are watching it being set in front of me. They're Not! Love your FUZZIES! Ro

And now when I eat around people they are watching to see what the RNY girl is eating. Is she following her 'diet' or is she going to be yet another person who has the 'quick fix' and then gains it all back??? Not me! Maybe I am hanging onto the larger clothes as a thread to myself not to gain it back? Too much psychologizing for me today! LOL! Molly

DH & I were talking about the public eating and "quick fix" WLS reasoning of others today! I was told that if I kept the clothes that I was actually planning in case I DID regain so I dumped them... done with those sizes. Fat Pics are enough to keep me on track. I looked so ill and old then. People can be cruel...that's why we love CATS! Ro

Summer Time... Beach Chair... Forget the bathing suits that I did not wear for years. The beach chairs were a nightmare! This year... I will get a "lightweight" beach chair and while I'm at it maybe a raft to grab some extra rays on the water in a bathing suit, of course!