Weigh in Wednesday!!

Melissa...you could have sent just the card and I would have been just as grateful. The fact that you thought of me and Sydnie is priceless...the gifts attached, those are just added bonuses. So I thank you again!! Melissa...I have a great deal of admiration and respect for you, not to mention a great fondness, so it is with love that I say this to you... You are WAY too hard on yourself. I do understand though, the not wanting to gain back, the fear of morbid obesity (AGAIN) and the self hatred we felt(feel) in being MO. But there DOES have to come a time where we accept ourselves and that the number on the scale IS just a number. We mess up, and make neccessary adjustments, not beat ourselves up. It hurts me to see you get so down on yourself. You are totally right about the "diet" forever though. It HAS to be a complete change of life, and I think we're all just so used to the "fad diets". You've done such an amazing job, I don't think I could ever consider you to have failed. You're an inspiration to all of us here. Give yourself a hug, and some forgiveness. (disclaimer...I'm in no way suggesting that we slack off just because we need to accept that we have boughts of regression) much love and hugs to you Melissa Shawn

Hey no problem for the card I am a lover of cards (big time) so I wanted you to at least know I was thinking of you Glad it came. I know I am hard on myself.. I always have been. My mom and I discussed this a while back that my rigidity in life actually makes my situations worse. If I would let go and relax a bit I am sure things would fall into place better.. It's like I have to have control well when I lose that, I become even more anxious and its just a vicious cycle. Sometimes I have more knowledge and research about stuff than I should even have.. b/c I end up driving myself mad, literally. You are right, I am scared to go back to that preop girl, the girl that is in the picture that I carry around with me everywhere as a constant reminder of where I don't want to end up at again. I know you say this out of love and concern for me. Everyone thinks I "look fine". Even when I go up and down the same 10 lbs.. I just hate when I go up as my jeans are tight and I can barely zip them with 10 lbs on me.. I hate that feeling, its horrible. Reminds me of when I was obese and was about to go to the next size up I think. I am not giving up the good fight but trying to stay at or below 1200 calories some days just isn't feasible for me like it is for many of you anymore.. I have much more of an appetite. I am trying hard to manage it though. With as much activity as i will be doing I can eat a tad more for it and so that helps me a tremendous amount to stay in line. Thanks a lot girlie.. I love you lots and thank you for being concerned for me. I don't know what I would do without you on this board.. all of you have given such a piece of your heart to me. I hope I can always do that for you. Big hugs back atcha cutie and to that cute sydnie

Girls, you are beautiful and 142-43 is perfectly healthy for you heights (you are 5'5, if i remember correctly, righ?) at the same time i can relate so much to your fear of re-gain. i just feel that if i go over 125 or 130 (both of which are still healthy even for a shortie like me), i might yo-yo diet myself back to obesity and eating disorders and i don't want that. Like you, i have a healthy appetite (if you had dinner with me it woud never have occured to you that i'm post-op. so the way i look at it: surgery helped me lose 100% of my excess weight in less that a year and i get a "clean slate." the rest is up to me love, nat

Thanks Nat I just feel my pants tight and I hate that feeling. I feel best at 130-135, which for me is perfect I feel. I won't kill myself to maintain it though.. if my body wants 140 then I will let it have it. 140 on 5'5" is still really great just don't wanna keep climbing higher and higher and my eating has been very bad sporadically... i can "binge" with emotions.. the beck book has helped me a lot with this but I sure can eat just like you describe like a nonop. I don't get a HUGE overfull feeling like many people do.. its subtle. And Im never in pain from eating "too much". So I gotta be careful. I agree with you.. yes it helped me loose 100% also.. now its me and all about me! Have a great weekend girlie.. I have missed you lots. Hugs, Melissa

A little late, getting ready to start too so wt is up a couple of lbs. I weighted my "gut' and it was about 5 lbs, so I am hoping the plastics will take off a few lbs once the swelling goes down, have a great week.....Hugs, Erin HW: 280 SW: 276 LW: 160 CW: 162

Here I am, a bit late, still having computer issues. Hope everyone is well here it goes HW 315 SW 310 LW 227 CW 225 Have great week!! kelly

hey everybody here it is last week i managed a 12lb loss. yahhhhhh

EXCELLENT!!!!!! Wow, You've been doing something right!!!! Great Job! Hey...You should ADD those LBS to the Adding Up thread. Congrats again on such a wonderful loss!!! Ro